day 3868 – coaching day

March 9, 2024 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #coach, #coachingduties, #competition, #dowhatican, #events, #feel, #focus, #kick, #mats, #nationals, #poomsaecompetition, #rbcconventioncentre, #runthrough, #slippery, #taekwondo, #venue, #winnipeg | Leave a comment

it’s day one of nationals in winnipeg’s convention centre. i have coaching duties today for my two competitors. trying to focus solely on being a coach and not think about my events until my job is done for the day. i got a chance to run through my poomsaes in the evening but still holding off on the kicks. it was good to step on the mats and get a feel for the slippery competition mats. i have been praying the tape job my physio did will last until i’m done my events because he’s been taping me since day one

day 3794 – training motivation

December 26, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #boxingday, #broken, #concentration, #doubts, #find, #focus, #hipflexor, #hippain, #injuries, #lower, #movitation, #poomsaetraining, #quality, #sidekicks, #silvermedal, #taekwondo, #tkd, #training, #winter | Leave a comment

it’s boxing day but no shopping for me this christmas. trying to find training motivation during this winter break and maybe this broken silver will do the job. i feel the quality of training has been lowered and i don’t feel like the focus has been there ever since the flare ups started. the left hip isn’t doing good and it’s letting me know early in each session. i have to lay off the kicking and that’s takes away all my sidekicks

day 3792 – off the clock

December 24, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #breather, #chocolates, #flower, #focus, #gifts, #holidaybreak, #holidayseason, #lifechallenges, #love, #madeit, #memyselfandi, #offtheclock, #quiet, #restisinorder, #timeoff, #welldeserved, #workaholic, #worklife | Leave a comment

made it to my well-deserved holidays break and received many love and gifts from my students. officially off the clock and won’t be responsible for any non urgent messages and emails until the new year. it’s been a very long year of work and i haven’t had any time off since returning from nationals in january. i’m just glad to have a breather now and i’m looking forward to a quieter christmas holiday to focus on myself

day 3597 – resistance bands

June 11, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #appointments, #daybyday, #dowhatican, #exhausted, #focus, #injury, #keepgoing, #mindandbody, #physio, #positive, #progress, #rehab, #resistanceband, #shoulderrehab, #thankful | Leave a comment

it feels really weird not to be at apex on a sunday morning. everyday my mind has been on my shoulder rehab and it’s been exhausting going from appointment to appointment, and even more so trying to keep it away from my parents. there’s positives all around and my physio started me on some low level band exercises. it feels great to hear that from him and i can’t thank him enough for being my support during this phase. i’ll continue to put my mind on making the best possible rehab because i want to make it a seamless return so i don’t have to disclose this to others

day 3594 – ultrasound

June 8, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #appointments, #builtup, #damages, #daybyday, #discomfort, #easing, #focus, #frustrated, #handled, #holdup, #hospital, #keepfighting, #onestepatatime, #physio, #rehab, #scan, #test, #toughday, #ultrasound | Leave a comment

another day of appointments, this time at the hospital getting ultrasound done. hopefully each scan or test eliminates more uncertainties and gets me closer to finding the answers. this was a tougher day because i had to care for my dad who’s also going in for an appointment. i thought i handled it well and didn’t show signs of my own damages. taking it day by day and focusing on rehab is what i can do. i’m lucky that my physio is working on me and making things better

day 3573 – lull

May 17, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #alonetime, #business, #focus, #heatwave, #nocando, #procrastinating, #quiet, #random, #stresses, #studio, #summer, #taekwondo, #tapioca, #taxes, #tense, #tidy, #vectortrainingcentre, #weather, #whiners, #work | Leave a comment

a quieter work day was good since whiners always come back out during slight heat wave. i still stayed around the studio tidying things, but mostly just thinking and procrastinating. i should really be working on my taxes, but my filing has not moved an inch. i’m feeling too tense these days to sit down and focus on that, when there’s hundreds of other things to think about or needs my attention

day 3516 – heavy deadlifts

March 21, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #barbell, #challenging, #deadlift, #focus, #form, #goaldigger, #goals, #gripstrength, #heavy, #kilograms, #kneeproblems, #onthemend, #platform, #reps, #set, #staypositive, #strength, #strengthgoals, #workout | Leave a comment

second week into my deadlift focused program and i successfully pulled ninety kilograms for five. it was really heavy but i was able to maintain form throughout the whole set. the grip strength is significantly improved because i used to resort to straps when i get to the seventy five kilo mark. i have the goal number locked in sight and keeping me positive while other things are busy trying to knock me down. this is the time to work on it while i’m off olympic lifting

day 3513 – delayed photos

March 18, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #athlete, #batch, #canadopen, #captured, #competition, #concentration, #delayed, #expression, #expressions, #focus, #gameface, #goodtimes, #inthemoment, #memories, #pairpoomsae, #photos, #poomsae, #precious, #taekwondo, #unnoticed | Leave a comment

to say that i’m a little behind in messages and correspondences is an understatement. i only discovered a batch of photos a parent captured during canada open last month. i love the photos he shared because it captured many of the in the moment emotions that often goes unnoticed like the concentration we had moments before stepping on the mats for pair poomsae

day 3468 – fresh february

February 1, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #accuracy, #competition, #dowhateverican, #focus, #freshstart, #hiatus, #keepworking, #losttime, #noexcuses, #poomsae, #routine, #situation, #solotraining, #taegeuk, #taekwondo, #thingsicantcontrol, #train, #weaker, #work, #workharder | Leave a comment

a better start to february just getting back to some solo poomsae time. this week i’m back to my regular training routine, focusing only on taegeuk six, seven and eight. i feel like it’s gotten weaker, but accuracy may have improved. it’s not as sharp as i want it to be, but i guess weeks of hiatus does that. i have to work extra hard to make up for the lost time. though nothing about the home situation has changed, my mind and heart is a little less troubled. i’m allowed to be sad, but i’m recognizing that getting upset won’t change or improve what happening to things i can’t help from where i am

day 3450 – dad’s birthday

January 14, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #appreciate, #birthday, #birthdaycake, #celebrate, #dinner, #emptiness, #event, #exhausted, #famkl, #focus, #hiatus, #mentally, #notfeelingright, #parents, #taekwondo, #technology, #time, #understanding, #wellbeing | Leave a comment

my dad’s birthday definitely deserved a nice dinner out and cake to celebrate. i appreciate the time we spend together and their understanding and patience while i have a fluctuating work schedule. another day without training and i still feel the emptiness within. i brought it up to some and pondered about it a lot. what i put in for my past event drained me more than i realize and only certain people will understand. i lost some pieces of me while sacrificing a lot of my well-being which currently hits me hardest mentally and emotionally

day 3282 – preschool striped

July 30, 2022 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #beasts, #blocks, #focus, #friends, #improving, #introvert, #kicks, #kids, #littlehumans, #preschool, #punches, #social, #stripe, #students, #taekwondo, #vectortrainingcentre, #vtc, #whitebelt | Leave a comment

preschool class just got a new yellow stripe and a green stripe. these two little ones have been doing great in class and improving steadily. i think these two will become beasts when they get a little older. it’s so easy for this group, at this age to be social and make friends. i don’t think i was ever like that no matter what age, but some things happen over the years to make me want to be less social and introverted. i still feel that way and i don’t feel comfortable with a lot of people nowadays

day 3235 – head battle

June 13, 2022 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #ankleproblems, #balance, #decisions, #difficulties, #doitanyways, #focus, #forcingtheissue, #headache, #headinjury, #lowexpectations, #notfeelingright, #poomsaecompetition, #stubborn, #taekwondo, #unstable, #wobbly | Leave a comment

it was already iffy competing in this poomsae competition with where my ankle is at, the head just adds on a whole new level. being the stubborn me, i still forced it to happen because i decided i would. it was difficult even just balance and focus so no surprise i felt really unstable and slowed. i have very low expectation of this competition and just completing the poomsaes is a myth

day 3231 – grunt zone crew

June 9, 2022 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #benchpress, #curious, #determined, #focus, #gruntzone, #impromptu, #lift, #lifting, #numbers, #practice, #program, #progress, #propertechnique, #push, #random, #squats, #technique, #upperbody, #weights, #workonit, #workout | Leave a comment

was only going to visit, but ended up getting roped into doing an impromptu lift. while i’m taking a break from olympic lifting, it’s the perfect opportunity to practice the bench press that’s rarely in my program. i’m determined to give it a couple weeks of focus, acquire the proper technique and see how progress i can make with the numbers. i also did a couple of squats because i was curious if there’s any changes

day 3166 – entertainment catchup

April 5, 2022 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #behind, #betweenscenes, #catchup, #fajita, #focus, #holding, #kdrama, #lunchtime, #multitask, #netflix, #onset, #random, #saelife, #screentime, #sit, #tablet, #twentyfivetwentyone, #waiting | Leave a comment

between scenes is when i can catch up on my dramas like twenty five twenty one. i’m so behind with shows, dramas and movies because i just haven’t been able to sit still and focus on one thing so i end up multitasking. movies are particularly hard to watch since i have trouble sitting for longer period of time. i now prefer to watch them in front of my own screen so i can pause and move around as i wish

day 3060 – thigh bruise

December 20, 2021 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #barbell, #blackandblue, #bruised, #bumpsandbruises, #focus, #leftitsmark, #meat, #notsogentle, #platform, #reminder, #snatchcomplex, #splitsecond, #thigh, #wander, #weightlifterproblem, #weightlifting, bulge | Leave a comment

this is a pretty good indication that i caught the bar in the wrong position. i completely missed my hip on a reset during yesterday’s snatch complex and it went straight to my thigh. fortunately it doesn’t really hurt, just a big purple bulging piece of meat. it’s a not-so-gentle reminder to self that when on platform, i cannot let my mind wander even for a split second

day 3029 – fight choreo

November 19, 2021 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #bepresent, #disappointment, #fightchoreo, #fightscene, #film, #focus, #followthrough, #judothrow, #movement, #planned, #practice, #reactions, #renosite, #shithappens, #staystrong | Leave a comment

though i’m in no mood after the heart sinking disappointments, i still followed through with the planned fight choreo. it was difficult to get my mind to solely focus on this one thing, but i tried my best to be present. good thing i didn’t drag my partners down and the final product didn’t turn out bad at all. still hoping i can continue practicing regardless of what shit happens outside of my control

day 2970 – laying low

September 20, 2021 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #betterdays, #bettering, #body, #busy, #dontjudge, #dowhatican, #focus, #holdback, #layinglow, #memyselfandi, #mentalgame, #myself, #random, #rehab, #selfcare, #selfdestruction, #shutoff, #social, #struggles, #timeandenergy, #work | Leave a comment

while there’s been constant struggle with my shoulder the past several weeks, i’ve diverted most of my time and energy into taekwondo and my school. i also intentionally pulled back from all socials because i wanted to focus on myself while not having the judgement of others. i tend to shut off aspects of life when i don’t feel myself. i never want what i am going through to leak into other parts of life and others

da 2776 – waterfall building

March 11, 2021 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #architect, #architecture, #arthurerickson, #building, #courtyard, #design, #ends, #entrance, #explore, #famous, #focus, #miss, #pyramid, #school, #staircase, #streamline, #stressful, #university, #waterfall, #waterfallbuilding | Leave a comment

this sight takes me back to the stressful school days of endless studying and deadlines. i finally get to check out the famous waterfall that i’ve been talking about since my university ENDS days. the main feature is of course the waterfall at the main entrance, but my favourite part is the spiral staircases that protrudes out into the communal courtyard. as stressful it was during those times, some days i do miss the aspects of dissecting architecture and design in general

day 2620 – tech day

October 4, 2020 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #apexthegym, #backat it, #calf, #cleanandjerk, #coach, #complex, #dowhatilove, #focus, #liftanddrop, #light, #pain, #platform, #romaleos, #session, #snatch, #soreness, #technique, #usual, #weightlifting | Leave a comment

i’m back on the platform after not having touched any weights since my knee broke down last week. my coach changed up the plan for today knowing i’m nowhere near a hundred percent. we kept all the snatches light with no feet movement and focused more on technique, but went pretty heavy on the clean and jerk complex which got up to ninety percent of my max. i walked out with an outrageously sore calf which was mildly sore when i first walked in. i’m really happy to be back no matter how much pain this will cause

day 2616 – self serve gainers

September 30, 2020 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #backhandspring, #brave, #breakthrough, #coach, #comfortable, #courage, #drilling, #flash, #flips, #focus, #gainer, #glad, #overhead, #progress, #reps, #setup, #swing, #tricking, #unspotted, #workinprogress | Leave a comment

gainer flash was set up to so we could try them on our own without a spot. i’m very glad the coach pushed me to go overhead instead of sticking with the swinging cartwheels. i needed to be brave to swing into that, but i was able to pull off a few by myself which i would consider as a breakthrough. i think this was only possible because i’ve gotten to a certain comfort level with my back handsprings and flash kicks

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