day 2375 – dim sum fortune

sunday afternoon dimsum had a surprise appearance from the chinese money man. he came into the restaurant and handed out red pockets to everyone. it was a gesture more than anything because the red pockets only had a candy. after dimsum, i relaxed at home before going to open gym where i finally got a chance to work on cartwheel flash. i hit my head onto the mat multiple times, but i think i needed to know how it feels like

day 2346 – plex

had second thought about continuing with the adventure plex plan because my ankle flared up after hockey last night. the ganglion-like lump appeared again even though nothing particular happened during the game. on top of front tucks, i can now do back tucks and back handsprings on the trampoline and airtrack. hopefully next time i come back i’ll also be able to do front handsprings, websters and flash kicks

day 2324 – reasons to quit

rough day doing flips today made me think of a lot of things that wasn’t suppose to cross my mind. i get the feeling others have already written me off and that i’ll no longer be able to land anything anymore. it’s unfair to be left hanging and it’s the main reason i’m considering quitting. i’m not a person that can settle with no foreseeable goals. in my mind, i’m thinking if i don’t land a new move either webster, butterfly twist, flash or flash gainer before the end of this year, i’m going to call it quits. maybe it’s better for everyone anyway so i’m not given false hope that i can be any good

day 2318 – cloudkicks battle

i can’t say i’m not disappointed i cannot participate in any of the cloudkicks events and workshops this weekend. a rough november full of injuries and accidents didn’t leave much hope for me to train or participate in anything. the least i could do is to sit on the sidelines and watch everyone else have fun. it’s was a treat to watch all the crazy tricks and battles happen before my very eyes. hopefully next year this time, i’ll have some improved body parts to work with

day 2278 – back handspring

i’m very happy to have ended my dry spell by landing my back handspring on floor after class. this is a move i wanted a while back but was told to hold off until my back tuck was consistent. drilling it the past weeks while staying patient with my bounding moves has really paid off. although it’s been feeling good the past week and getting spotted floor attempts, i couldn’t get myself to floor it by myself. good thing i was pushed to just do it today and landed a decent one on my first attempt. aside from my back handspring, i’ve been feeling pretty good with a few other moves

day 2271 – out of reach

i once wrote this list of things i wanted to drill and moves that i want to have. it was something i needed to keep myself accountable while chasing these moves, but none of this is happening and not sure if i’ll ever be able to get back to drilling anything. honest to god, it’s really wearing on me and some days i cry myself to sleep knowing i may never be able to achieve any of these goals. i’m going to put up a fight, knowing so

day 2249 – testers and testees

i never kept track of the number of promotion tests i’ve led, but if i had to make a guess, it would over fifty. done another colour belt tes today before heading out to flightclub. i almost didn’t make it out to open gym because i joined them for an spontaneous dinner. i still ended up going, and worked on some back handsprings drills which i found quite insightful. i stayed until the end of the open gym, i’m going to be super tired tomorrow morning

day 2233 – flip talks

during the late night dinner with the crew, had a bit of a truth moment when the topic of competition came up. deep down i know i want to compete, but being removed from the competition field for quite some time is a big obstacle. i know for me to make a comeback, i put a lot of pressure on myself to only compete when i’m confident i can do well; i just want to ensure i’m at my best. but as of right now so many factors are standing in my way and instilling so many doubts. for one, my foot is a problem because it’s not letting me have my preferred techniques. i can’t work on my roundoff combos and i avoid kicking combos whenever possible

day 2202 – tricking plan

i think i got myself a tricking plan to keep pushing forward. the assignment is simple: each session i must complete the required reps choosing three from the flips and three kicks on the checklist. this is meant to push me to develop and acquire new tricks while maintaining and improving my old tricks. it also forces me to practice the things i don’t necessarily enjoy but should sharpen. i can’t land any new tricks if i don’t spread my eggs in different baskets. i need to diversify my skillset

day 2178 – flightclub birthday

a night at the facilities to celebrate flightclub coachs birthday. in the short span i’ve spent tricking, i’ve met a lot of new people within the community. i arrived late to the party due to another long teaching shift. we spent the night playing board games, karaoke, eating, chatting and of course flipping. there was no shortage of food and cake from the potluck. i stayed past midnight but not until the very end since i need to be up early for walk with the dragon the next morning