though my roundoff has been feeling terrible with my ankles having direct correlation, my back tucks have been getting better and better. this is largely a result of being pushed and challenged to hit a certain number or bust one out when called upon. as a result of the repetition, i’m way more comfortable and confident doing them on the floor without a spot, anywhere in the gym. i’ll definitely keep up with doing them because every opportunity is a chance to better them and fine tune them
hitting up open practice because i want to get the numbers in before i leave for vacation. it’s late for my early work schedule and i know i’ll be tired, but i felt the need to do so. i’m afraid i’ll lose my front tuck and back tuck during the time that i’m out of town and don’t know where to located a flipping facility. my back tucks have been getting way more consistent. feeling more comfortable doing them on my own on blue mat puts a smile on my face
goofing around at the end of friday and taking a final picture with one that’s leaving us. so glad the work week is over because i had to swallow so much that i didn’t want to deal with. i left the office and headed straight for flipping. it turned out to be a very good class. i was urged to try an unspotted back tuck onto the blue mat – the first one on my own in years. somehow things felt right today; i made much more progress compared to all of last week and happily left the gym feeling accomplished. i’m a lot more comfortable with a few of the moves and a lot closer to landing it on the floor
i’m willing to accept that my legs will take several days to recoup, but not willing to stop everything i have on my schedule. still trying to practice some kicks and land some flips while in class. it wasn’t spectacular by any means, but i still landed a few spotted. the repetition and getting the numbers in has slowly gotten me more comfortable. it’s crazy to think it’s the start of the second week of july. how time flies by so quickly and where has the months gone?
got home from dodgeball and two boxes sat beside my staircase. i was so excited to see my shoe order came in the mail as a result of last week’s shopping spree. bought both pairs with a really good deal and they turned out to fit well. one is very comfortable and the other is rather avant-garde. i don’t regret spending the money on these at all; in fact, i should have bought a few more. as much i love shopping and my neverending wishlist, i have to monitor my savings too
there’s no change since. the fact that i still feel alone hasn’t changed. it makes me wonder what difference it makes being in a relationship. i still feel i am on my own. has it gotten too comfortable to the point where communication can be so sparse and the disconnect can be so big?? i don’t have a lot of needs and i don’t demand for much, maybe that’s why i get pushed aside and pushed down in priorities. i try to sweep it under the rug but i can’t help noticing my patience that something will turn around is declining. holding on might not be the thing to do anymore