goofing around at the end of friday and taking a final picture with one that’s leaving us. so glad the work week is over because i had to swallow so much that i didn’t want to deal with. i left the office and headed straight for flipping. it turned out to be a very good class. i was urged to try an unspotted back tuck onto the blue mat – the first one on my own in years. somehow things felt right today; i made much more progress compared to all of last week and happily left the gym feeling accomplished. i’m a lot more comfortable with a few of the moves and a lot closer to landing it on the floor
i’m willing to accept that my legs will take several days to recoup, but not willing to stop everything i have on my schedule. still trying to practice some kicks and land some flips while in class. it wasn’t spectacular by any means, but i still landed a few spotted. the repetition and getting the numbers in has slowly gotten me more comfortable. it’s crazy to think it’s the start of the second week of july. how time flies by so quickly and where has the months gone?
got home from dodgeball and two boxes sat beside my staircase. i was so excited to see my shoe order came in the mail as a result of last week’s shopping spree. bought both pairs with a really good deal and they turned out to fit well. one is very comfortable and the other is rather avant-garde. i don’t regret spending the money on these at all; in fact, i should have bought a few more. as much i love shopping and my neverending wishlist, i have to monitor my savings too
there’s no change since. the fact that i still feel alone hasn’t changed. it makes me wonder what difference it makes being in a relationship. i still feel i am on my own. has it gotten too comfortable to the point where communication can be so sparse and the disconnect can be so big?? i don’t have a lot of needs and i don’t demand for much, maybe that’s why i get pushed aside and pushed down in priorities. i try to sweep it under the rug but i can’t help noticing my patience that something will turn around is declining. holding on might not be the thing to do anymore
saying goodbye to florida and the sunshine for now; i hope to be back soon. it was a memorable trip going away with mo and experiencing florida together. being ill on this trip for sure dampened my mood and made things difficult. it was a short and good one, but i’m glad we’re heading home to where it’s most comfortable and familiar. now it’s time to get back to our normal routine and resume our grind
the many walks of life has brought me to many people, all of which have enriched my life in unique ways. every person has brought something different to the table but each of you have touched my heart one way or another. we took some chances and gave it everything. i cherish the memories and time we had and don’t regret any of that was created and shared. i am an individual that locks up a lot inside and doesn’t let my thoughts and feelings out unless i feel it’s the right person who can crack the shell to make me feel infatuation. there are some i really enjoy spending time with and feel comfortable being around where i can say whatever my heart desires. with these people, i feel an odd sense of security that changes all complexity. i regretfully say these selected few where we are highly compatible in many ways but can only wish but not progress beyond. it just cannot happen for so many complicated reasons i cannot and will not explain. it just wasn’t meant to be, our fate was destined to remain friends, and good friends we are. i look forward those that i will encounter and the chances i will take. if something was meant to be, it will happen. at the right time, with the right person, for the best reason