day 1558 – me menu

called everything off and put myself and only myself on today’s menu cause i need time alone to set my priorities straight. absolutely no work related tasks today – no work for the first time in sixteen days. i was going down the wrong path of cramming work in to avoid idle time which in turn has even more negative effect on my mental health. can’t say i’m not a workaholic but then realized i was more burnt out than ever. so first time sleeping in until eight, helped my parents moved furniture, went for a workout and cleaned my room. that is not to say i don’t see the relationship struggles, but we’ll both be working on it together. i do feel better thinking i’ve reset my priorities and reorganized my life for the upcoming week

day 1553 – bpm meeting 

mid week morning meeting is tough without a splash of caffeine. i was suppose to take a half day off last week but that didn’t happen. the form was filled out and sitting on my desk since mid july, but finding an appropriate day to take my half day off is harder than i thought. if i continue to fail, it will turn into twenty days of consecutive work. working fifty seven hour a week is like a fourteen day work week and i definitely don’t want to get sucked into doing that like before

day 1552 – raising

first day of august which is also the day my new salary kicks in. i worked my butt off for this day and i will continue to work even harder to make my case. my manager said that he intends to take me as high as i would like. i’m in it for the ride and still on have my eyes on the target working towards that unit of mine. there’s a reason why i’m constantly working; because i know what i want. it’s about wanting to build my own empire from the ground up

day 1534 – tug of war

the planning committee put together an amazing summer bbq party that includes photo booth, contests, games, prizes and food trucks. of the many events and activities that we had, tug of war was the main event because a trophy was on the line. today was a good day despite a slip up in my eating. my manager couldn’t have picked a better day to inform me of my increased salary. it was so good to hear that he has fought for my compensation in return for my hardwork; he wasn’t kidding when he told me to stick by him, he’ll take me higher and make it worthwhile for me

day 1523 – rehab progress

had trouble falling asleep last night after one day of sleeping in. it’s stat but up early and in the office for half day to get some work done before rehab and stuff. the moment when i tell my kineis my legs are sore and he assigns me paused squats. the sessions are going well and i do feel i’m improving quickly. i like what i’m learning and it gives me a lot to work with. he definitely worked me pretty hard today but i like how he’s pushing me when he sees that i can get better quicker. he’s realized he can throw me into the deep end and i’ll swim

day 1497 – tirelessly going

been hemmed in developing this new collection. after fiddling with lighting settings and going through many partial renders and trial runs, this is the first fully rendered room i can settle with. keeping busy and overloading myself with eleven hours so there’s no idle time and nothing else but work. if i could squeeze work in every sector of my day to occupy my mind, i need not to worry i’ll be thinking, feeling or crying. the best solution i can come up with until i can no longer take it

day 1481 – stat work

the office was as empty as the roads were during rush hour today. the office was quiet on a statutory holiday but the increased productivity was much needed for my friday deadline. feeling unrested and uneasy all week long because all i can think about is my teammates flying off to nationals; i should be with them, but i’m not. i’ve been using many things to numb my feelings and emotions until something can act as sleeping pills. work is one of them and i keep being my workaholic self to not allow myself any down time so i don’t end my night in tears