day 1805 – home alert

ok a much delayed sick day and stayed day home to do nothing. even after sleeping in until ten in the morning, i still felt really crappy. not only has my head been hurting constantly for weeks, i could feel my blood pressure is at a low and couldn’t get my head or body to function. knowing do, i had to deliberately feed myself some salt. although i didn’t go into work, i was still checking my work email hourly. not being able to make it out to hockey game isn’t so bad, but it’s alarming when i felt indifferent missing it

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day 1759 – homework latteĀ 

this evening is all about homeworking while holding onto my cup of latte. i could be having fun on friday night, but i chose to do some catch up work at forty ninth parallel. there’s never enough time for all the things i must get done and the extra stress is noticeably getting to me this week. two more sleeps of home alone before my family fly back from their europe trip. it sure seems like they’re having a good time, but my mom still checks in to make sure i’m doing okay

day 1708 – bakery cakery


rushing out of the office like a mad woman trying to buy a cake on the day of my brother’s birthday. what i was going for was a mousse cake but none left so i stuck with chinese fruit cake. most of my family members doesn’t eat whip cream, but we’ll make do this time and make sure we order in advance the next time around. we may not talk much with both of us being workaholics and having such busy schedules, but i’ll still go the distance for him when necessary 

day 1683 – fancy pastry

getting treated by the marketing team with some fancy decadence. in the week long absence of my manager, the few us of leads held the fort down and the marketing manager went the extra mile to make some callouts. in my mind, i was just going about my business; in the eyes of others, we presented ourselves professionally even when other departments tried to rattle us. while some took the opportunity to slack and call in sick, i kept going in day after day. ten weeks into the year, i’m the only one in design department to still have a perfect track record and still planning on going strong

day 1658 – plant for a day

it’s a statutory holiday but here i am putting in work and getting dusty in the icon plant because they need it. it was labour intensive work with lots of loading, lifting, carrying and cutting. though i have no intention to work in a plant, i acquired new skills such as routering, edge banding, spraying, laminating and cnc-ing; all these will help me do and understand my job better. in the end i even cut and assembled a foot stool for my own desk. it was loud with all the machines and fans running, appreciation for the plant workers who can withstand eight hours of this noise

day 1657 – padding the statsĀ 

third last game of the season for fishsticks so filling the scoresheet is what i needed. i did exactly that tonight, taking the lead in my bet with a one goal two assist night. i was tired heading into the game having worked from nine to eight with a two hour gap in between teaching shift and promotion test, but not so tired after such good production. i’m sure i’ll feel the fatigue even more tomorrow trying to wake up for my 7:30am shift after a late game. i’m just happy that i feel like i’m rounding into form again as playoffs are ramping up.

shaping 2018

2017 was challenging that staggered between many emotions, some happy, some successful, some difficult, some burdensome and some heartbreaking moments. i was struck by my most depressing moments that resulted in bottling up emotions where self destruction happened. underneath the outer shell, was three hundred and sixty five days of constant battle that left many unseen scars. after this three hundred sixty five day battle, i came to realize i had ample growth: grew stronger, became braver, gained experience and expanded my knowledge. the struggles gave me a different perspective in life, the achievements gave me hope to to continue to climb. life is a journey defined by how well one copes after being knocked down. looking forward into the next twelve months, i’ll regroup and pull myself together to find my strong. i’m a fighter and won’t stop short of reaching my goal. as long as i stay strong, keep grinding and never settle for less than my full potential. life is about betterment and i’m committed to being the strongest version of myself

the latter part of 2017 wasn’t the best of days and was a true test of patience. the long drought, the fluctuating health, the seesawing emotions were all big obstacles, but i made sure all loose ends were closed. waving 2017 goodbye knowing 2018 has much more for me in store

  • get back healthy and stay as injury-free as possible
  • consistent training and eating with proper sleep
  • step up my game and take it to the next level
  • setting my priorities and boundaries
  • love myself for who i am, love my family, love my friends
  • stay focused towards advancement
  • attain more designations
  • save up for the numbers game
  • explore and travel the world
  • devote more time on what sets my heart on fire
  • step out of my comfort zone and expand my horizon
  • acknowledge being a workaholic but appreciate the little things

i’m ready to start 2018 off strong and be the stubborn goal digger that i am. just remember the best has yet to come