day 1618 – more student

more work coming my way, taking on another student. she approached me for help and i’m a willing helper, though the obstacle is also time. i’ll have to figure out my already crammed schedule to see how i can accommodate the both of them; at least i know i’m wanted somewhere. somehow, somewhere i think i was born to teach something since i find teaching all the time

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day 1609 – gym needs

headache at work got pretty bad again to the point where i didn’t seem useful and should just go home. but i stayed and kept thinking the tylenol will kick in soon enough. i was only looking forward to going to the gym, and stubborn enough even if i were to collapse during. i really wanted to since i haven’t made up for the missed monday and i wasn’t about to do another shuffle nor write off this week

day 1597 – working slave


this fifty nine hour work week makes me i more like a working slave. i was pressured into taking an extra teaching shift that i was reluctant to take. i didn’t want to work a thirteen hour breakless shift on a friday but that’s what it came to be. sifu made me very uncomfortable with all the things he’s forcing upon me; he expects me to take the roles of school poomsae coach and the team bc poomsae coach which comes with added certifications i must first complete. thinking of the increased regular training and time commitment stresses me out, as if i don’t have enough on my plate already 

day 1581 – work is life


aside from the need to making a living and making what i had spent on vacation, work is pretty much my life. back in the office after two days off and there’s nearly thirty unread emails. within an hour in the office, project managers are asking if their requested deliverables would be ready today. excited to have a new setup and an upgraded workstation. there’s no easing in as my first day is already an eleven hour day with work and teaching. i don’t mind it too much being back in the thick of things; at least i am important somewhere

day 1558 – me menu

called everything off and put myself and only myself on today’s menu cause i need time alone to set my priorities straight. absolutely no work related tasks today – no work for the first time in sixteen days. i was going down the wrong path of cramming work in to avoid idle time which in turn has even more negative effect on my mental health. can’t say i’m not a workaholic but then realized i was more burnt out than ever. so first time sleeping in until eight, helped my parents moved furniture, went for a workout and cleaned my room. that is not to say i don’t see the relationship struggles, but we’ll both be working on it together. i do feel better thinking i’ve reset my priorities and reorganized my life for the upcoming week

day 1553 – bpm meeting 

mid week morning meeting is tough without a splash of caffeine. i was suppose to take a half day off last week but that didn’t happen. the form was filled out and sitting on my desk since mid july, but finding an appropriate day to take my half day off is harder than i thought. if i continue to fail, it will turn into twenty days of consecutive work. working fifty seven hour a week is like a fourteen day work week and i definitely don’t want to get sucked into doing that like before

day 1552 – raising

first day of august which is also the day my new salary kicks in. i worked my butt off for this day and i will continue to work even harder to make my case. my manager said that he intends to take me as high as i would like. i’m in it for the ride and still on have my eyes on the target working towards that unit of mine. there’s a reason why i’m constantly working; because i know what i want. it’s about wanting to build my own empire from the ground up