day 1839 – gym socks

got on the highway and turned for home when i found out i left my gym socks at home. ended up hitting nash after dinner for a quick session of front squats, one of the few barbell exercises i can currently do. nothing like lifting some iron after many consecutive days of rough days at work. some days i question how sane i am to still be at this office. i really do miss this nash now that i don’t come as often due to work and commitments. but it’s here i find myself most comfortable and the place where i get in the best lifts

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day 1668 – weathering


the cold vancouver winter is quite frightful and unpleasant for my shadow. the weather forecast has issued a heavy snowfall warning that starts at 6am. i don’t enjoy the snow on city roads because i’m slipping and skidding everywhere. the sight lines up at the mountain is a much better view. it’s making me think back on the warm summer days when i would be outdoor without frozen fingers

day 1322 – transformation 

this is not a throwback thursday, but a random photo sifu sent me today and i thought it was funny but fitting. to a raw competitor of six years ago, when i also sparred at bc champ. i can’t keep track of how many competitions i have been to since then; it’s probably a good sign when i don’t. i miss the good old days when i had coaches to turn to, but now i, myself, have taken on that role and can only rely. on myself. still trying to grow into someone i could rely on. it’s a special day for lomo, but no time to celebrate

day 914 – leaf through

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came across this as i was leafing through my phone album for a kickass picture request. going through these pictures bring back so much memories, the times when i seemed to have a better grasp of competition. deep down i know i miss competition and really want to be back in the game, but knowing i will not return until i can step up my game. it’s been far too long since i last competed. the longer i’m away from the competition stage, the more scared i feel. i hope i’m able to control and improve not only my game, but my state of mind

day 676 – belt stitching

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my new belt came in today nice and stiff. it’s not much different than my previous belt, just a little darker shade of black than my worn one with a nice tint of faded black. it will still take some time to break into and get used to it and i must admit i do miss the feeling of my second dan belt. this is the beginning of another stage with lots of learning and growing to be done before i can say its fully earned. i will stay humble and continue to learn and train even harder

day 103 – missing

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many chilly and gloomy rainy days in november, its been a while since we had sunny days. i almost forgot how the sun felt like shining in my face and how tanned i was back in the summer. miss the days we stood looking at our own shadows. not looking forward to endless rainy days and dark mornings