this is an extreme pessimism post because i’ve seriously had enough everything. there’s so much i miss about this. i miss being able to move without so much pain and limitations. i miss being the fittest, strongest and best shape of my life. i miss doing backflips, kicks and flips at will. i miss playing hockey and dodgeball with all my teammates. i miss the soreness that came after every lifting and training session. i miss being able to jump and climb onto anything i wanted to. i miss the summer sunshine and being outdoors until night. i miss doing everything i can’t do at the moment
spent time running through some basic kicks and then taeguek 1 all the way to taebaek. i’ve realized too much devotion to instructing as taken away from practicing and bettering my own skills. i can’t remember the last time i did a poomsae or kicks for real. i feel utterly rusty and even disgusted with how sloppy its become. i need to dust of all that rust and keep up with my own practice. as an instructor and a competitor, it would be a disgrace to lose all that proficiency i once trained really hard for. it’s only fair i continue to practice as i expect my students to do the same
i’m willing to accept that my legs will take several days to recoup, but not willing to stop everything i have on my schedule. still trying to practice some kicks and land some flips while in class. it wasn’t spectacular by any means, but i still landed a few spotted. the repetition and getting the numbers in has slowly gotten me more comfortable. it’s crazy to think it’s the start of the second week of july. how time flies by so quickly and where has the months gone?
instead of setting fireworks, i am spending my halloween night training hard two days before competition. my legs were so messed up as of late, waited long enough finally able to extend and kick without too much abnormal pain. worked hard and repeated each step tens, fifties and hundreds times that my hands are so overworked