day 2049 – containing

the weekend was nonexistent and it’s back to work for another week. i contemplated if i should go or skip flipping because my stomach wasn’t feeling good and was so tired from the weekend activities. i went in the end thinking i’ll take it as it comes. it wasn’t too bad since i got a chance to practice my cheat kicks and of course some random front tucks and back tucks

day 1947 – team pixel

my black friday shopping arrived at my work today. first time in my life i’m using a phone not made by sony. it was a big decision to part ways, but not a hard choice. the pixel 3 stood out from the rest, though the cost also stood out amongst it’s competitors. i told myself i wouldn’t use it before my case and tempered glass arrives. i did well not to unbox it and fidget with it during work

day 1922 – scholarship

grandmaster handed out scholarship to a few of us at the annual celebration party. it’s his way of encouraging us to take the next blackbelt test. to be frank, this amount covers only a small portion of the large sum. i’m not sure where i sit with this decision because it doesn’t necessarily change anything for me. there’s many reasons i don’t need it, but also many reasons to just do it. i’ll give it a little more thought over the course of the next month and see what type of commitment it requires

day 1836 – twirls

two weeks of no progress drove me crazy and today i finally see marginal improvement from my last physio appointment. deep down i knew the answer was a no go even think about trying to go flipping. i shouldn’t risk screw up the slightest improvementby by forcing premature attempg. still, i felt like practicing my five forties so found some empty space at the gym and went at it. it’s rusty especially not being able to use my arms properly, but practice is practice

day 1787 – mister donut

i drove to the entrance of flipping but thought better of myself than to force the issue. my spine is an integral part of me so turned around and decided to start my the munchies bonding earlier. the three of us ate so much during black panther night. we laid out everything on the table from sushi party tray, chicken nuggets, fruits, crab and buckets ice cream. i had a break through petting a dog for the first time in my life and i would never have done this if it was any other dog that was more cuddely than mister donut. he did not approach me to try to sniff or touch me for much of the night. at most, he stood in front of me to have a stare down. since he did nothing to me, i felt this was my only chance to touch a dog even though i feared for my life

day 1778 – handspringĀ 

it was a rough day with so much fluttering through my mind and possibly a big decision oncoming. i few messages sent my way in the morning almost made me explode. i didn’t feel like going to flip after work, but i did anyway. wasn’t too bad with my first cracked at combos and crash course on front handsprings. i was, however, terrible at back tucks and didn’t bother doing anymore than three before i called it a day. i went home feeling quite disappointed and down. it’s just one of those off days that wasn’t meant to be, but i’ll come back clean and try again next time

day 1757 – coaching face

i laughed a little when a parent emailed me this picture that he captured while i was teaching. i guess my face said it all; i shall not show satisfaction for as long as i can ask for more. i’d be the first to admit i’m not an easy instructor to please because i’ll always be asking more of my students. overall, the progress they’ve shown through the training is telling. teaching aside, there’s a lot to ponder on in the next little while. so much up in the air that puts everything on the line. it’s a pretty big decision i cannot rush, but it’s a decision only i can make