day 2705 – light sabers

my back is in much discomfort, but i was still itching to train because i feel like i’m rotting without exercise. as instructed by my chiropractor, i’m allowed to do some form of light training as long as it doesn’t make it worse. i took it slow and easy for the most part, but i also wanted to test it out and see where my range is at. back handsprings were okay; flash kicks and even basic cartwheels were not. i felt pretty satisfied that i was able to do my atuckaday on the floor because that was certainly not a given

day 2581 – mosquito infection

what started out as a pin-sized mosquito bite from last night turned into a ginormous infection the size of a grapefruit. every time i get a bug bite, it turns into some disgusting infection that makes the whole area inflamed. it burned and itched so much i wasn’t able to get any shut eye. i woke up and put some hydrocortisone, hoping it’d ease the discomfort and i can concentrate on what is at hand

day 2563 – wu’s bound

second week teaching back at wu’s and the discomfort of teaching wearing a mask and taekwondo shoes is still high. i hope this isn’t a permanent change because i feel really bad for the students especially when grandmaster mandates the shoes which could be hazardous. all i can do is give them more frequent water breaks so they can breathe. i can’t even hear myself clearly wearing a mask nor pivot properly with the grip of the shoes

day 2451 – skytrain stroll

saturday evening social distancing stroll has become a regular thing when covid is in effect. i’m so glad the weather has been good to us so we could spend time outdoors. i for one would go insane if i was trapped indoors with no activity. we walked one skytrain station and back which turned out to be a lengthy forty five minute walk. we walked at a leisurely pace, but somehow my bad knee was in some discomfort by the end

day 2174 – squinty park

a lifting session at apex before a softball double header. despite my back and neck not feeling normal, i still felt strong on front squats and lighter muscle snatches. not a fan of squint lake park because there’s so many mosquitoes around. even though i had bug spray on, i still got bit in the leg. hopefully i get to the bottom of this back and neck issue that’s causing so much discomfort becuase i’d hate to go through another week with so much unexplained back pain

day 1693 – say no

i dreamt that i was really stressed at work and turns out i had a good reason to. three of my tech members were away or sick. it’s irritating when one of then has been missing a lot of time giving reasons like slept in, migraine, stomachache or lung disease. it bugs me how low their threshold is, to call in sick so hastily and so often. i, too, am in quite some discomfort, but here i am at work responsible and trying to get some things done

day 1525 – damaged body

the appointment was so early i woke up close to a dozen times worried that i would miss it. had my butt looked at after being in utter discomfort; seeing much bruising made me worrisome. to fix my misalignment and damages, i had adjustments made for my tailbone and hip flexor. the wrist pain is getting really bad it’s not really a functioning hand at the moment; adds to the insult of my other already tendon damaged hand. physio got angry at me for pushing this appointment two weeks late but work just doesn’t allow for it. i’m kind of sad i’m already so utterly broken right now, a little consideration would be nice

day 1517 – ruined

nothing but disappointment missing my monday workout, missing dodgeball but that’s exactly what happened today. this forces me to rearrange this week’s workout schedule. i haven’t cramped this hard in a long time, but it was more than that which made it worse than waking up on the wrong side of the bed. it was an unrestful night where i laid in bed for hours not being able to fall asleep and when i finally do, i get woken up several times in sweat. even in terrible condition, had no choice but to to go to work because i had stuff to hand over

day 1435 – monotonous 

img_20200203_1513566580734750671200953.jpganother day and another sleep deprived night. it was hard enough to fall asleep, but it was harder to stay asleep; i couldn’t stop waking up thinking i overslept. the discomfort today got so much i resorted to some tylenol so to dull the discomfort. for the rest of the day it felt like a drag and i wasn’t really present. i had no appetite by dinner time i didn’t even bother. affected me everywhere at rehab and even just lying down

day 1250 – diffident

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it was new years day and i just wanted to be home so i could be antisocial. being rattled and feeling unworthy in so many ways. my disappointment and discomfort loomed over, i didn’t even make it into the gym. instead, i rang in the new year with all sorts of organizational work and kept myself as busy as possible. i worked like a robot and had a productive day, but i didn’t feel much satisfaction. i spent the night spilling my thoughts on the keyboard to erase today and start again tomorrow