day 1805 – home alert

a much delayed sick day and stayed day home to do nothing. even after sleeping in until ten in the morning, i still felt really crappy. not only has my head been hurting constantly for weeks, i could feel my blood pressure is at a low and couldn’t get my head or body to function. knowing so, i had to deliberately feed myself some salt. although i didn’t go into work, i was still checking my work email hourly. not being able to make it out to hockey game isn’t so bad, but it’s alarming when i felt indifferent missing it

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day 1798 – horseshoe way


getting into work after a long weekend is not quite fun. i was hoping the long weekend would change the insomnia and headaches but so far i feel little improvement. the one person at the office that never fails to give me stress is doing it again, and always trying to pick the moment when my manager is not present. both the planned and ambushed attacks are all part of her strategy to redirect blame when something goes wrong. the trend of taking drugs day after day is not the long term fix, i’m slowly beginning to think a visit to my doctor is necessary. now if only i can find time to make that call

day 1796 Рoh canada 


a different canada day unlike any previous years where i had to host a taekwondo competition. this is the most laid back canada day i can remember, spent it helping my parents with some cleaning up and recycling old junk. the nagging headaches is really not going away, and making me feel uninterested even in my most favourite things. the long weekend continues with a nice dinner out at kishimoto before checking out a free concert. even though it was rainy and slightly cold, the swanguard stadium festivities and fireworks turned out well

day 1776 – refresher break

getting to work on time was really difficult today because i felt like i never slept during the night. i couldn’t fall asleep until after 2am and was woken up twenty past four. i felt like crap at work the whole day. i could’ve easily gone home early, but too much u work in my queue i couldn’t even think about taking some time off for a nap. if it wasn’t for some tylenols and this refresher, i wouldn’t have last the whole day of work plus a couple hours of teaching

day 1756 – japanese kitkat

coworker came back from japan trip with goodies to share. of the many flavors she brought back, i chose the matcha and sake. of the many kitkat flavors i’ve ever tried, matcha is still my favourite. a headache made me feel crappy this morning, i didn’t think i’d stay at the office the whole day. popping a few advils seemed to have helped me head and got me through the rest of it. calling it an earlier day and hopeful it gets better by tomorrow

day 1721 – crap load

feeling pretty bad at work and also making bad decisions with food. my headache worsened, throat is dry and scratchy, knee is compensating for the hip, and on top of that i’m on some drugs and steroid drops. there’s a lot of work to be done at the office i can’t afford to miss any time. it’s my month to lead the design meetings and i’m currently heavily relied on so i feel obligated to hold down the fort. i toughed it out until the end but i’m going to crawl into bed before nine thirty and hope i wake up tomorrow morning good enough to work

day 1686 Рskate tongue 

playing for the first time with my skate tongue in and i kind of like how the skate is more snug on me. the order of putting on gear will have to be slightly altered but that’s something to get used to. not feeling great after a barely catching any sleep, but still had to push for a rushed deadline today. took a nap alongside some tylenol and even then just wasn’t quite enough to be in game shape. my reaction and timing was off, but i did play a well defensive game covering for centres and coming back for odd man rushes. tempted to take a little time off work if possible; a little rest would be nice for my current tired soul