day 2411 – discouragements

sometimes i may show nothing on the surface, but deep inside i’m just discouraged and hurt. i couldn’t contain myself when i got home at night because it’s hard to accept i still have yet to get my webster and flash despite all the time and energy spent on it since november. it’s hard to swallow that everyone is improving so much quicker and here i am still working on the same thing time after time, still being told to be patient when i can no longer be patient. sometimes i wonder why i’m still going in to work on it when nothing is going to change. i don’t want to be the hard worker that gets nothing done

day 2406 – back flip story

training after class as usual and then coach tempted me with an impromptu back flip on hard surface. i didn’t think twice before agreeing to throw one to go on his story. back flips hasn’t been my focus the recent months so i was surprised this one was better than all the ones i threw on my europe trip. i really would like to throw more of them on hard surfaces, on command. i also wish i could level up on new tricks which is why i’ve been working so hard on flash, webster and raiz

day 2158 – teddy bear stand

no work on monday because of a long weekend means i can go to open gym and not have to worry about how late i stay out. training started productive, drilling five back tucks on floor and fifteen front tucks on blue. i also did some aerials, arabians and spotted flash kicks before my knee started hurting slamming onto blue mat on btwists. i then switched to teddy bear head stand and handstand practice. i’m more concerned that my hair and ponytail is messed up after each attempt