day 2396 – cartwheel back

i was feeling a little lazy and slightly unwell ever since my abbreviated gym session in the morning. i’m really glad i still went to open gym because i came out with a very big reward. ever so grateful that the coach spent time helping me out with both my standing back tucks and my cartwheel back tucks. he who believed i could do it on the floor and urged me to do so by setting up progression stations. he’s the reason i landed my cartwheel back tuck on floor tonight. life is kind of crazy. the same move that tore my foot happened exactly a year ago today; i thought i had to quit for good. i’m beyond happy i came full circle and landed what i thought i could never ever accomplish ever again

shaping 2018

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2017 was challenging that staggered between many emotions, some happy, some successful, some difficult, some burdensome and some heartbreaking moments. i was struck by my most depressing moments that resulted in bottling up emotions where self destruction happened. underneath the outer shell, was three hundred and sixty five days of constant battle that left many unseen scars. after this three hundred sixty five day battle, i came to realize i had ample growth: grew stronger, became braver, gained experience and expanded my knowledge. the struggles gave me a different perspective in life, the achievements gave me hope to to continue to climb. life is a journey defined by how well one copes after being knocked down. looking forward into the next twelve months, i’ll regroup and pull myself together to find my strong. i’m a fighter and won’t stop short of reaching my goal. as long as i stay strong, keep grinding and never settle for less than my full potential. life is about betterment and i’m committed to being the strongest version of myself

the latter part of 2017 wasn’t the best of days and was a true test of patience. the long drought, the fluctuating health, the seesawing emotions were all big obstacles, but i made sure all loose ends were closed. waving 2017 goodbye knowing 2018 has much more for me in store

  • get back healthy and stay as injury-free as possible
  • consistent training and eating with proper sleep
  • step up my game and take it to the next level
  • setting my priorities and boundaries
  • love myself for who i am, love my family, love my friends
  • stay focused towards advancement
  • attain more designations
  • save up for the numbers game
  • explore and travel the world
  • devote more time on what sets my heart on fire
  • step out of my comfort zone and expand my horizon
  • acknowledge being a workaholic but appreciate the little things

i’m ready to start 2018 off strong and be the stubborn goal digger that i am. just remember the best has yet to come

day 1337 – raspy

img_20200204_1608533380692050119664002.jpgpopping advils and drinking honey lemon water to fight off headache, sinus and raspy throat. i can’t let my immune system fail me now; i need to take care of others instead of being taken care of. going into the office today was hard as hell; i couldn’t concentrate on my tasks as my mind was far, far away. i kept telling myself i must chug on until i can no longer

day 1240 – amrapping

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my movements are still limited so i had to deviate from my regular thursday lifts. a simple workout that didn’t require a lot of equipment but required a lot of fighting with inner self. it was a heart pounding one that had me drenched within a minute. there were so many times i could’ve stopped and gave up but didn’t. i missed this feeling of exhaustion and really needed it, but my body tells me otherwise. i will wake up tomorrow in pain and my legs will hate me every step of the way, but i’m proud i pushed through. just a testament that i’m physically stronger than i think and that i need to work harder mentally. i feel like i needed this so i deserve to eat tonight

day 1169 – rattled

img_20200204_2157025212719555131841140.jpgthere are instances when breaking down is the way to continue being hardy. had one of the heaviest conversation that i’ve been evading for as long as i could, but it was one that made my heart feel lighter. little was said within the conversation, everything else said it all. sometimes i’m at a loss of words because everything stays inside, but understand that i’ll always be the person you came to know. it was very difficult to follow through the night with dodgeball and training

day 1156 – starbucks calling

img_20200124_1200348875807582414390058.jpggetting more work done with starbucks in my hand. productivity keeps rising – completed more graphics work, finished some logs, placed my order, downloaded my material, did my research and continued with my templates. kept myself as busy as i could; i’m two episodes behind in my drama. when the gym is calling but still off limits is a lonely feeling i’ll never get used to and never want to get used to

day 1136 – tennis semis

snapchat-142079096.jpgwatching the double header for men’s semifinal took my mind off a lot of unnecessary things. i was rooting for my current favourite player on tour, nishikori. he won the first set but came up short against wawrinka. despite today’s loss, nishikori still had a great run at us open to add to his bronze from rio. i guess i won’t be too sad about missing sunday’s final

second anniversary special edition

second anniversary special for recognizing and celebrating tongtongvision reaching yet another milestone. snippets of my 2015 canadian nationals in montreal which was a little different than last year’s toronto. still a trip filled with everything you can imagine from good times, crazy times, stressful times, exhausting times, but still creating lots of memories and meeting new people along the way. hope to go more places and with more of the gang to create more of these memories in the future, don’t let it stop, cheers to making it through another year of seesaw epicness, keeping it strong and hope it grows and only gets even better from here onwards

day 603 – supps arrived

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my extra boost arrived at a good time. precisely what i needed to remind myself to stay on top of things. this whole depressing phase has taken its toll and worn me out in too many ways. nothing has been settled and nothing has been thought through, but i need to stop digging a deeper hole for myself and get back to the grind regardless of the situation. but i know that there will be sunshine after the rain

my journey at a glance

a look back at my taekwondo journey from the very beginning, snapshots capturing all the memories and special moments through it all. i am appreciative of all the people i have met along the way, the instructors and students who have shaped and built my character to make me the person i am today. i cherish very moment that i shared with fellow teammates and instructors and could never have asked for anything more. training for the nationals day in and day out, everyday for the entire month, early mornings and late nights was one of the highlights of this journey and i wouldn’t have it otherwise. i started my journey not knowing how far i would be able to go and where i would end up. little did i know i would make it to become a blackbelt with heart and soul, to be an instructor mentoring others, to have competed in numerous provincial competitions, to have competed at the grandest stage i could ask for – the nationals. injuries have plagued me throughout but i have yet to give up on a dream to be a better me. time after time my knee has disappointed me and i have ran out of possible reasons why it keeps failing me. all i want to do is get better and get back to it. i am proud of all the accomplishments and challenges overcomed to get to this point but i am not satisfied with letting go because there is so much more waiting for me. nothing beats getting healthy again and training with you all, for the next nationals and everything beyond. don’t take me away from this, don’t let this be the end, i am not ready to give up what i have fought for and what we have created