day 3558 – rusty tricks

May 2, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #backatit, #backtuck, #confidence, #feelsgood, #flightclub, #fun, #happy, #headoverheels, #movearound, #musclememory, #nerves, #opengym, #pace, #session, #surprise, #training, #tricking, #unspotted, #wallflip | Leave a comment

first flightclub open gym session since february and i was worried i wouldn’t remember how to do any tricks. first and foremost, i wanted to move around but throwing an unspotted back tuck would be nice to have. i thought i would start from scratch and warmup in the pit for as long as i need before having the confidence to throw it, but i went for it only after a few jumps. this already made me really happy, but what made the session even better was throwing a wall flip. that one took a lot of timer jumps and pacing back and forth before i finally convinced myself to go for it. it’s nice to have retained some muscle memory even after such a long break

day 3441 – competition day

January 5, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #athlete, #bronze, #comeback, #deduction, #dobok, #huge, #inthebooks, #kiyap, #medal, #mistake, #nationals, #nerves, #podium, #poomsaecompetition, #relief, #return, #roadtonationals, #roaf, #satisfied, #sidekick, #taebaek, #taekwondo, #toronto | Leave a comment

the big day i’ve been preparing so hard for has arrived. it is the day i take the mats and i can’t say i’m ready but i’m as prepared as i’ll ever be. getting back on the mat was the main goal, making it on the podium was definitely a good feeling. i played the side kicks really safe and sacrificed height for stability. aside from a hiccup i should never make, i’m happy with my overall performance. the nerves was unavoidable especially after such a long stretch. it’s a huge relief getting my first comeback in-person competition in the books and earning a bronze

day 3440 – coaching duties

January 4, 2023 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #appearance, #assistantinstructor, #coaching, #coachingduties, #coachpass, #competition, #familiarfaces, #feelings, #id, #mats, #nationals, #nccp, #nerves, #pass, #surprise, #taekwondo, #tkd, #toronto, #weird | Leave a comment

a sudden turn of events last night i never made it back to my hotel, but i got up extra early and made it back for the scheduled team meeting. it’s the first time i’m coaching at a national level event and making use of the nccp i finally completed after seven years of procrastination. seeing a lot of familiar faces from years back is a weird feeling and i’m sure they’re surprised to see me back. my role is a coach today and then i turn competitor mode tomorrow. i’ll admit i’m nervous but containing everything inside and trying to look like i’m fully under control

day 2866 – bar down

June 8, 2021 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #backpain, #badnews, #barbell, #drop, #fail, #garagegym, #hindsight, #injuries, #neckpain, #nerves, #notmyday, #scarymoment, #selfdestruction, #shoulderpain, #snatch, #storyofmylife, #workout | Leave a comment

a scary moment this morning when i dropped the barbell on my neck. it was difficult to continue, but i still wanted to finish the workout as programed because i might as well get it all done before i find out what’s wrong with it. i didn’t want to re-watch the video until later in the day after my nerves settled. i still can’t believe i didn’t let go of the bar and that should never have happened. in hindsight, i probably wasn’t in condition to do much lifting let alone go heavier on snatches

day 1181 – fifteen for fifteen

October 24, 2016 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #courtside, #dball, #domination, #firsttime, #hamberite, #handlingmyself, #homie, #irresistible, #justforfun, #nerves, #rdldodgeball, #satisfaction, #sck, #sourcatchkids, #undefeated, #winitall, #winning | Leave a comment

safe to say it was a dominant night when my team goes undefeated and gets all fifteen wins. the schedule eased up the past two weeks but we’ll go back to reality when we play some high tier one teams again. i wasn’t planning on playing tonight but i couldn’t resist because standing on court side watching is boring. two days before i leave town, i think i am handling my nerves a bit better than usual

conquested us world open

April 4, 2016 by tongtong in my insider and tagged #alwaysmakingprorgress, #bestperformance, #champion, #coach, #competition, #confidence, #conquest, #doitformyself, #feelinggood, #focus, #gameface, #gametime, #gaveitmyeverything, #goldmedals, #jitters, #liveduptoexpectation, #memyselfandi, #mentalgame, #mentality, #mytime, #nationalsbound, #nerves, #neverbackdown, #nowornever, #poomsaecompetition, #portland, #pressure, #proud, #proveit, #repping, #satisfied, #silvermedal, #steppingstone, #support, #teambc, #teambonding, #tkd, #usworldopen, #zonedout, silverlining | Leave a comment

i felt tremendous pressure going into this year’s us world open for so many reasons – definitely tenfolds more than last year’s. last year being the first go had its uncertainties, but because of my successes, it gave me extra stress and pressure this time around to live up to the unwritten expectations. nationals in the summer gave me one of the biggest blows in my competition career. it was one of my worst performances to say the least; it almost made me certain i was going to call it quits for taekwondo competitions. since then, i haven’t willed myself to step onto the mat again to do what i thought i loved. thankfully, my competitiveness fought through to cling onto my competition dreams and didn’t allow me give up on my passion. slowly i left canadian nationals 2015 behind and began training again. it’s almost a year since my last competition experience. the layoff has definitely triggered endless pre-competition jitters. i withdrew from a competition in february due to fear and at times i had the biggest urge to withdraw from this one as well. i knew this year’s division would be even tougher than last because i would be up against two teammates of mine. we’re a team that supports each other but there’s no secret that i’m a competitor at heart. i didn’t want to lose and really wanted to live up to expectations, expectations that i have for myself. for that reason, the pressure really got into my head and i was struggling to concentrate on my game. luckily, i have all the right people around me to give me all the support to guide me through these tough times and bring the best out of me. they gave me the strength to carry on even at my weakest times. days leading up to the competition and even minutes prior to going on deck, my mind replayed all the things that was said to me. i had a lot to prove and i did exactly that. just like last us world open, i was the last to go in my school and last to go in my division. everyone from my team including the grandmaster were crowding around my ring. the long wait for my teammates to finish built up so much tension. to make it worse, the opening ceremony coincidentally started as it was my turn to step on the mat. from the start of division, i was so focused i zoned out everyone and including the demo music; it was my time – nothing but myself. i didn’t dare watch any of my competitors’ poomsaes or scores. in fact, i didn’t even look at my own scores so i had no idea what to expect as the judges announced the medallists. all i knew was i stepped off the mat confidently feeling good about the performance i had put forth. getting silver for individual is the silver lining to this trip and a great way to cap off us world open 2016. i felt my mental game was the strongest it’s ever been heading into a competition and i owe that to a lot of people. i feel some confidence and self belief slowly coming back to me

day 583 – pre comp syndrome

March 6, 2015 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #bengay, #benmyfriend, #competition, #cramming, #disappointment, #dowhatican, #fail, #fridaynighttraining, #hopeforthebest, #hopeful, #lastminute, #nerves, #panicmode, #poomsae, #practice, #precompcrisis, #procrastination, #restup, #sidekick, #taebaek, #tkd | Leave a comment

at the school the night before competition doing some very last minute cramming. soreness finally easing off and i am finally able to do my full poomsae for the first time in a long time. it might be a little too late because i feel the pre competition crisis taking over. one side of my sidekick is very concerning but i know i need rest so i don’t overdo it. so i will just call it a day and hope that when i wake up tomorrow morning everything will be back to normal

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