day 1334 – powering up

hitting the gym one more time this weekend for good measures. power cleans never felt the same ever since my chest took the bar three months ago and i’ve stayed away from big weights cause i was scared. wanted to work on the mechanics of my cleans to dust off the rust and regain confidence. just slowly working my way back but who knew i’d be pr’ing on my third time since the long layoff. i was more than stoked because it was a huge barrier for me

day 1313 – border crossing 

it’s been a good but tiring oregon trip with long drives to and from portland. on my way home after many hours spent in the car, long day of competition and irregular and malnutritioned meals. i’m content with the results and my personal performance and hope that this will get myself back on track. this might be what i needed to reinstate my mind and body to get the grind going again. now that the competition is behind me, i must gear down and focus because march will be a crazy month

day 1285 – badbell hog

it seems everyone is busy with super bowl sunday so there’s no meatheads to be seen. i had the whole cage to myself so i carried out my work using a pair of barbells. i decided my big weights for leg must go on after power skating, so even though skating session today was a tougher one than all previous times, i couldn’t change my mind. i knew i made a mistake of deciding to go straight into that workout, but i don’t regret one bit of having completed it as planned. it was heavy on my shoulders and my legs still feel the burn as i lay in bed, but the fact i pushed through is satisfying 

day 1181 – fifteen for fifteen

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safe to say it was a dominant night when my team goes undefeated and gets all fifteen wins. the schedule eased up the past two weeks but we’ll go back to reality when we play some high tier one teams again. i wasn’t planning on playing tonight but i couldn’t resist because standing on court side watching is boring. two days before i leave town, i think i am handling my nerves a bit better than usual

day 1119 – demeanour

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sometimes when you get comfortable seeing something you forget to appreciate the little things that surround you. taking things for granted happens; it happens with things, it happens with people. i guess i can’t be too bothered because a good day at the gym cancels it out and also makes up for my last subpar performance. i am happy i made new ground today and i know there’s more to come. once again, it reminds me pr’s are meant to be broken, limits are meant to be surpassed and goals are meant to be reached

day 994 – three championships

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from handball, to volleyball, to basketball to dodgeball, we’ve been to many finals through the past decade. thinking of all the things we say to each other, the endless pain we inflict on each other, but in the end, the amount of crap we take to play together. this is the love hate relationship we have created; i can’t imagine playing on any of these teams being as much fun without you. we’ve won three dodgeball championships together, this is by far the most memorable and satisfying one because it was so hard earned against our teammates. let’s keep it going

respect myself

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there comes a time when i have to weigh in the goods and bads and determine what is best for me. i must stop serving others and stop doing things for the sake of doing things because life is not about what others want. i have a tendency of putting myself and my own well being in the backseat while always putting others first and making sure everyone else is content. part of the challenge of life is learning everyday, no matter who it may be and what stage of life you are at. lately, the advice crossed my mind to take the courage to step away from the things and commitments that no longer make me happy, that no longer gives me the satisfaction it once did. i feel like i am at a multi directional intersection where it’s time to make changes and decide what i want to hang onto, what i want to do, and what direction and aspect i want to take and improve upon. i would be the first to admit i take on a lot and not all are self chosen. my life would be a lot happier and a lot less grim once i determine what it is what drives my passion, and what commitments i need to leave behind. not saying that i will stop helping others, but first and foremost, i need to ensure that i have time for myself and am taken care of properly. i am urged to think more about myself and less of others; in other words listen to my beating of my own heart because my main purpose of existence is not serving the world. it may sound selfish, but i am simply trying to live and enjoy my life, just like how everyone else is