day 1885 – ultrasound

a very delayed ultrasound for the shoulder that’s not healing nicely. something must be wrong with it if in two months i’ve made no progress. as told by my chiropractor and kinesiologist, the chance of my tendon being torn is very high. based on my knowledge plus reading up on symptoms, my initial instinct from day one was correct when i said something was damaged. now the investigation is on to find out what’s the severity and what’s the recover

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day 1856 – disassembled

pain is something i have a lot of experience of and much tolerance for. of the fifteen years i’ve been seeing my physio, i never felt so close to passing out from the pain inflicted. wanting to get me back into my sports and away from dysfunctional shoulder, he didn’t hold back and completely crushed me into bits. i laid on the massage table for an extra minute before i could regain my senses and pick myself off it and onto my feet. even at the end of the day, it hurt so much that my whole shoulder is numb and to the point it’s lost all its powers and ability to move. the analogy is a race car arriving at a pit stop to get ripped apart for repairs. felt a lot like physio tore me apart and reassembled my shoulder. this is the price i pay to fix my shoulder, but i’d rather pay for it to get me back in the game without restrictions

day 1854 – treadmill trek

walking through the woods and running through the city while watching federer play the game he knows best. a rare day in the gym without doing squats or any barbell related exercises. i don’t usually do cardio at the gym aside from warmup, but i had to try out their new treadmills with these cool features. i didn’t do any compound movements, but it was enough to know that my shoulder is still nowhere near normal functions. all i wanted to do was insert myself back into some activities

day 1843 – back on field

my shoulder still feel restricted and painful in outstretched positions, but back in my cleats and on the grass field playing softball for the first time in four weeks. i have to protect my shoulder by limiting the amount of movement it can do. realizing that’s quite difficult when i have to snatch all of throws that come my way to first base. i’m not going to lie it hurts when playing, and i’m sure that expected on my first games back

day 1836 – twirls

two weeks of no progress drove me crazy and today i finally see marginal improvement from my last physio appointment. deep down i knew the answer was a no go even think about trying to go flipping. i shouldn’t risk screw up the slightest improvementby by forcing premature attempg. still, i felt like practicing my five forties so found some empty space at the gym and went at it. it’s rusty especially not being able to use my arms properly, but practice is practice

day 1835 – bad shoulder

checking into physio because my shoulder is massively preventing me to live my life and carry out my daily needs. i’ve put a halt on all my sports, workouts and physical activities for two whole weeks, yet there seems to be no improvement. did some rotational and shoulder stability stuff with kinesiologist before physio worked on my shoulder, elbow, wrist, neck, and knee. i’m hoping whatever my physio adjusted today is what i need to get me well on my way back into sports

day 1828 – beemer recall

driving in an all new white 330i courtesy car to physio while shadow gets serviced. physio delivered the good news to me that my xrays came back negative. he diagnosed my injury as one that compressed and jammed up my whole ribcage. it all makes sense when he pointed out that my right is also limited in range. his nonstop jabs at my chest and ribcage were painful, and left me trying to catch my breath even after he let go of me. though i know it’ll get better after the pain and tenderness he caused subsides, i can’t help but that i’m in agonizing pain