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from the beginning of the calendar year, i have taken stride after strides in terms of personal growth. as per usual, i set some goals for myself, some more bold than normal. what stands out is how my work performance has changed and how much my role in the company has evolved. i’m grateful to be one of the five that my manager has identified to take on the emerging leaders coaching program. my manager has offloaded a lot of things onto my plate; it’s stressful but i’m proving i can handle all that. each time i prove myself capable, i gain more trust. i welcome all the new and bigger responsibilities because that’s the direction i want to move towards. while majority has been moving in the positive, there are some that’s lagging behind. some things aren’t coming by as easily as i had drawn out, and that’s consumed a bit of frustration over the last little while. i haven’t been seeing the results i thought i would have, but i am to be blamed for i haven’t put enough effort into that aspect. i do feel my discipline has slipped so i’ll need to tighten up in that regard. i’ve done some self evaluation and i’m going to keep going because i’m a believer that it’s only a matter of time before i start achieving. i may appear to have it all down pat in other’s eyes, but to me, i set the bar high for myself and i’m far from where i want to be. being my harshest critic is who i usually am and that only means i have nowhere to go but up

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day 1561 Рbandwidth 

i can’t control that some people are toxic and can’t mind their own business. no matter how i take care of my tasks, there’s always going to be somebody ready to stir the pot. my bandwidth is full with projects stacked on projects, it has no capacity to deal with bullshit. i had a long talk with manager because he obviously saw the frustration in my eyes. he is coaching me through the management side of things and mentioned that if i wasn’t an important member, they wouldn’t even bother picking on me. i’m going to continue to keep a good strong head on my shoulder and work on getting it better than ever no matter what the situation is. if people misunderstand and make ignorant assumptions, so be it

day 1382 – off the post

dropped off my family for their flight to hong kong first thing, coached a morning of poomsae competition, and taught my usual taekwondo. ten hours without break before heading to my drop in game. playing drop in really cautiously so not to reaggravate my poor back and neck. surprisingly had a solid game on both ends of the ice with scoring chances, reading passes, and making back checks. i came really close but the goalie robbed me of a nice one timer. later, i had the goalie beat twice but only to have the post deny me both times. i will figure out way to find the back of the net again but overall happy with how my back responded – not worse than before the game

day 1153 – trifecta

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glad to report productivity was quite high today; it was a good balance of both work and exercise. a crazy way to finish the last six hours of my monday but definitely sets the tone for the week. i had everything all in one night – first was coaching, second came dodgeball and third was hockey. played an okay game with two good scoring chances and the team got a lucky overtime win. i survived off the snacks that i could fit in on my drives to and from events. i am so done for the night; i just want to pass out the minute i get home

day 1145 – sunday split shift

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started like any other sunday morning teaching taekwondo, met up for some skating practice, then did my coaching and training while he went to the gym. we soon reconvened for dinner to enjoy our sashimi and cold ramen before finishing our laid back evening. we make the most out of our split shifts. it was a pleasant day doing things we enjoy doing. my legs and glutes are going to hurt from having so much training in the past days and definitely lacking massage and rolling

day 1144 – morning grub

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i wouldn’t say i’m nearly rested for a day like this, but the grub might make me think i am. had my usual and ready to take on a full saturday that started with errands and seven hours of back to back taekwondo. nonstop until 8pm where i can remember to breathe and think. i was feeling pretty cranky which also lead to some bad and regretful decisions. my knee hurts, but i’ll be back for more teaching and training tomorrow

day 1131 – back in season

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less goofing around from now on because offseason is officially over today. onward with the first of many coaching and training sessions of another season. practice went well; i had more of a coaching role today as it was a big bunch. reminded myself i would stay professional and i did. although it’s not a good sign when i start the first training relying on ktape stretched across my back