day 1664 – boarding school

expected nothing short of crowds at cypress after some significant snowfall in the city. long lineups with freezing temperature, but still very fun learning how to carve properly. sunny day with lots of powder, but all the accumulated wipeouts are still pretty harsh. i’m slightly addicted to skiing and boarding and i want to keep going until the season end. but first, i have to stop at physio to fix up my whole body that’s beaten up from so much activity all week long; my physio will not be impressed that he has to attend to so many body parts

day 1520 – growlers 

i had no handle on what damages could happen today, but i have three appointments lined up. honestly think i make terrible decisions but i really wanted to play dodgeball after sitting out for an extra ten days. it’s taped up to the point where almost no skin on my hand is visible, yet it still hurts to grip the ball, catch the ball, throw the ball. i came out not thrilled expecting more, but at least playing today didn’t make it much worse

林奕匡 – 有淚多好

it’s a good song, but a sad one. a song that looped and looped over hundred times in my car and on my computer because it speaks for my heart. i can’t explain and don’t want to try to explain why tears just keep rolling uncontrollably. all this is just wreckage to my soul, and i’m ready to pull out to end the misery. every day i tell myself that this will all be over some day. i guess i’m just waiting for the moment to speak and get it over with

day 1381 – waking up

i am getting more irritated and more concerned waking up every morning feeling like a train hit me. i can’t move my neck to look down at the ground and cringe every time i need go bend over. these restrictions isn’t working for me and it’s only a matter of time before i explode. there’s so much i hate about my life at this point because it doesn’t allow me to move or play at will and i’m simply dying from gym withdrawal

day 1347 – blatt

who knew sour catch would be competing for blatt this playoff. it was a tough tier to be in and no surprise our playoff didn’t last long but maybe that’s not a bad thing because my shoulder is beyond wrecked when it doesn’t fully rotate. i do believe the team played the best we have all season; we laid it all out on the court and didn’t give an easy pass to either riceballz or pork. already looking forward to next season but first need to heal

day 1346- stim days

two years ago my knee was still going through the worst of it. being hooked up to machines and doing muscle stimulation multiple times a week was definitely a one of a kind experience. i cannot say it’s normal now, but it’s taken leaps and bounds considering where it once was. i’m wrecked today to the point where i could hardly lift my shoulder to manoeuvre a mouse. i’m sad and disgruntled but i’m reminded why i persevered through my knee problems all these years

day 1344 – laying low

the work hours crept by so slowly but at least i was trying to work. at times i still felt dizzy with headache and wished that it wasn’t only wednesday. multiple body parts are wrecked and needs more rest than i will ever give it. surprisingly able to pry myself away from the gym and even decided against dodgeball. instead i spent the evening doing some overdue tedious calculations, paperwork and catchup