day 2511 – squats and shit

June 17, 2020 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #better days, #bubbleteaban, #careless, #cutweight, #depressed, #egodamaging, #flip, #garagegym, #goals, #hyperextension, #injury, #kneeproblems, #ligament, #notincontrol, #shitty, #squat, #storyofmylife, #unhappy, #weightlift, #workout, #worried | Leave a comment

morning squat session was a little ego damaging if i even had any to begin with. i set out to do one fifty five for three reps, but had to lower that expectation and couldn’t even manage two good reps on my own. what made it worse is i hyperextended my left knee again during tricking class on something i shouldn’t have been so careless with. i don’t know how damaged my knee and ligaments are, but all the bad thoughts went through my head. it could be a long, long time until i get to drink bubble tea again. i wouldn’t be able to land a new tricking move, i wouldn’t be able to cut down to my goal weight, i wouldn’t hit my two plate deadlift or my one eighty five squat. none of these can be achieved in order for me to lift my bubble tea ban

day 2416 – student teacher

March 14, 2020 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #activities, #belttying, #citywide, #continue, #coronavirus, #disinfect, #halt, #health, #killarney, #living, #quarantine, #student, #surprise, #taekwondo, #teach, #vancouverparksboard, #virus, #worried | Leave a comment

taekwondo classes continue despite the coronavirus warnings across the city. i’m surprised vancouver parks board hasn’t cancelled the classes while everything else has been put to a halt. with all my teams and leagues cancelled or postponed, i’m praying that neither my lifting gym nor my tricking gym closes too. i’m more worried that i won’t have any of my activities and will die of boredom if quarantine ever takes place

day 2309 – mri results

November 28, 2019 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #ankle, #atfl, #chiro, #concerned, #doctor, #footproblems, #forever, #friends, #injury, #ligament, #ligamenttear, #mri, #panic, #results, #ruptured, #scared, #shocked, #shook, #sports, #sportsmeddoctor, #torn, #worried | Leave a comment

i think shocked wouldn’t even be the correct term to describe myself after finding out the mri results. i’m pretty shaken that my ankle ligament is completely torn. it didn’t really hit me on the spot, but as the day went on and i digested this news, i’m feeling pretty discouraged and utmost concerned. it strikes me that i will forever not have this ligament and it will never heal itself. if not treated, i will have no chance of being able to do all that i love doing – my sports career will be changed and limited forever. i had some chats with doctors and friends, hoping to get their thoughts and views on it because i clearly couldn’t keep my head above water

day 2214 – three musketeers

August 25, 2019 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #awardwinners, #belttest, #breaking, #cbt, #grandmaster, #instructor, #killarney, #mainschool, #marks, #pressureison, #promoted, #proud, #redblack, #students, #taekwondo, #test, #threemusketeers, #trophies, #worried, #wustaekwondo | Leave a comment

the killarney three musketeers made me a proud instructor today. they’ve grown into fine red-black belts. aside from these three, a lot of my students performed well and earned their stripes. they all worked very hard to pass my stage gate before they were allowed to test. first time i was given the pen to hand out promotion test marks. the grandmaster has spoken and basically informed me the date of my test – it’s coming up a lot sooner than i expected. i would’ve appreciated a longer notice. the pressure is on and i’m really starting to worry about my chosen breaking

day 1545 – shrinking fast

October 23, 2017 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #badpatient, #brokenbone, #curiosity, #dark, #dying, #imbalance, #muscles, #reminder, #shrink, #splint, #tensorbandage, #twoweeks, #unhealthy, #unpleasant, #unwrap, #worried, #wrinkly, #wrist | Leave a comment

i was so curious to see what was going on underneath the tensor band and fiberglass. the doctor at checkup reminded me to be a good patient; clearly, he had a good reason to remind me. thinking it’s okay to unwrap it for a couple hours while i’m working from home. it’s unhealthy skin tone with wrinkly dead skin was an unpleasant sight. after not using it for over just two weeks, my left wrist is shrinking big time. i am very worried that after my six weeks is up, there will be nothing left in my arm and i won’t have any muscles left

day 1300 – less sensation

February 20, 2017 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #baddays, #badtiming, #bed, #disappointed, #heatpad, #hipflexor, #iceoniceoff, #injuries, #miracle, #numb, #overkill, #pain, #patch, #repeat, #sensation, #storyofmylife, #tkd, #worried | Leave a comment

it was a bad ending to a monday night aggravating my hip at dodgeball shortly after having pulled it at taekwondo. i went home the whole way not having sensation in my right leg from my hip down; not a feeling i’ve ever felt. my night has been rounds of ice, heat and patch repeat. i can’t get my mind off two things: what happens with my competition and can i play my games this week. i’m doing lots to make it go away

solo series [day ten]

May 26, 2016 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #anime, #asiasummer, #circuit, #gymwithdrawal, #japanese, #languagebarrier, #messages, #osakabound, #piggingout, #rain, #setbacks, #shinsaibashi, #sleepin, #soloseries, #streetvendor, #timedifference, #weatherforecast, #worried | Leave a comment

since weather forecast said both osaka and kyoto are affected by rain, we decided it’s not worth the trip out to kyoto and will postpone it for next day. that was my que to sleep in and make up for the lack of sleep. we spent our morning in shinsaibashi, a 600 metre covered street mall, and shopped until lunch time. we were fortunate it didn’t start raining until 5pm and that’s when we made our way back to b&b

for the second straight day, i elected to not go out for dinner. this gives me some personal time and a chance to do a circuit. that’s no replacement for gym sessions, but i will have to make do with it until i get back. all that pigging out and no training is not boding well. i’m worried the time away from gym has set me back many steps

i clearly didn’t learn enough from watching anime. menus with only japanese characters are pretty meaningless to me which makes ordering impossible. the only way for me to remember the names is to translate them into chinese; they all sound so absurd i end up making fun of them

i have yet to have a video chat with mo while i am in japan; it’s very difficult based on time difference. we still exchange messages very frequently. i know that he’s taken this time to reconnect with his close friends

day 79 – still left sitting

October 18, 2013 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #ambushed, #expectations, #goodandbad, #liveuptoexpectations, #needabreak, #needles, #perform, #pressure, #putonthespot, #searchingfromwithin, #somuchtodo, #sunday, #tkd, #uncertainties, #unprepared, #whatcanido, #worried | Leave a comment

still sitting here thinking what happened and why i am chosen for the good yet bad news. with such short notice and little or no way for me to prepare for something i have been put on the spot, what is expected of me?? i hate not living up to expectations and i certainly don’t want to screw up in front so many

day 78 – vlt

October 17, 2013 by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #dilemma, #fightingtime, #figureout, #hongkong, #latenight, #lemontea, #problem, #procrastinating, #sunday, #time, #typical, #uncertainities, #vita, #vlt, #weekend, #worried | Leave a comment

vita lemon tea, best drink ever invented and the drink i have grown up with as a typical hong kong raised child. sitting here drinking this late at night, trying to figure out how i am going to pull it off this weekend without disappointing the many. i like to shy away from attention, because i still feel the insecurities

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