day 2502 – surrendered

after a night of ankle disappointment, i still persisted to do the normal morning lift. it wasn’t the normal workload, but it was all that i could muster; did lighter deadlifts and changed up the squats for some overhead presses. it’s also the first time i took a step back and surrendered tricking class even though i wasn’t busy. it didn’t feel right missing my tricking routine, but it also felt right because my body needed to rest and reset. i thought it made more sense to sacrifice today’s class for a chance to have a stronger week

day 1832 – skippy breakfast

making my skippy breakfast at the office on bc monday. the office was quiet for optional statutory swap day but i opted to work. it’s actually nice since i’d have time to myself without interruptions from meetings, phone calls and emails. perfect time to knock off my timesheet and the many undone items on my overloaded plate. my work priority list always get shuffle because everything we that comes in are always tabbed as important and urgent

day 1826 – work calls

i went into work and did my lunch and learn presentation. i went not because i wanted to, but cause obligation calls. the way everything has unfolded recently left me feeling sour and i’m about to give up trying to reach for justice. i no longer feel like standing up for what’s fair and will just do whatever is said. the amount of work i manage, the amount of stress from all directions, and the lack of respect i’m receiving just doesn’t add up. the renumeration that was promised doesn’t exist. if things don’t change, then i’m on my way out

day 1776 – refresher break

getting to work on time was really difficult today because i felt like i never slept during the night. i couldn’t fall asleep until after 2am and was woken up twenty past four. i felt like crap at work the whole day. i could’ve easily gone home early, but too much u work in my queue i couldn’t even think about taking some time off for a nap. if it wasn’t for some tylenols and this refresher, i wouldn’t have last the whole day of work plus a couple hours of teaching

day 1729 – tape-less tape job

img_20200130_2119092999369881383456291.jpgreplacing new tape on top of old tape all week long. it appears i have tape on even when i don’t actually have any on. it’s been that kind of life since last week and i’m surviving off tape job after tape job until i can go into physio. as it stands, my workload is so insane there’s no way i can take time off for an appointment. this doesn’t stop me from going to dodgeball, and won’t stop me from going to taekwondo

day 1721 – crap load

feeling pretty bad at work and also making bad decisions with food. my headache worsened, throat is dry and scratchy, knee is compensating for the hip, and on top of that i’m on some drugs and steroid drops. there’s a lot of work to be done at the office i can’t afford to miss any time. it’s my month to lead the design meetings and i’m currently heavily relied on so i feel obligated to hold down the fort. i toughed it out until the end but i’m going to crawl into bed before nine thirty and hope i wake up tomorrow morning good enough to work

day 1643 – milking tea


i had such a good weekend i didn’t want it to end, or the fact i actually had a weekend. it’s back at work monday morning and drinking milk tea out of myself. i still feel slowed with a dull headache and is somewhat hungover. i’ll try to keep it tame this week for a change this. work will suck up a lot more of my energy because manager has for overtime from me as opposed to assumed overtime. the intention is to keep it as banked hours for the future, provided my assistance can come at the rate that work is increasing at

day 1622 Рsmilies 

img_20200130_225332-174148947726717835.jpgi may not have had the most restful night, or even had enough at all, but it was a good day. looking at my workload and queue you would think i should be overwhelmed. instead, i’m handling the multiple deadlines and pressure in controlled manner. i was really dialed in and it’s paying dividends in productivity. i left the weekly tech meeting feeling really good with a clear picture. it seems i’ll be occupied ramping up on the new programs. monday work and tutor went smoothly which is worth smiling about

day 1561 Рbandwidth 

i can’t control that some people are toxic and can’t mind their own business. no matter how i take care of my tasks, there’s always going to be somebody ready to stir the pot. my bandwidth is full with projects stacked on projects, it has no capacity to deal with bullshit. i had a long talk with manager because he obviously saw the frustration in my eyes. he is coaching me through the management side of things and mentioned that if i wasn’t an important member, they wouldn’t even bother picking on me. i’m going to continue to keep a good strong head on my shoulder and work on getting it better than ever no matter what the situation is. if people misunderstand and make ignorant assumptions, so be it

day 1477 – new salary

img_20200203_1531139026052472221022023.jpgreceived my first pay stub with my new remuneration; means a lot to me to finally have my hardwork reflected in my salary. though that’s the only bright spot of the day as i woke up feeling really shitty about myself. a stomachache made matters worse and i didn’t feel like eating. i regret having dragged myself into the office but had so much work that missing any time wasn’t feasible. just as i thought my evening was getting better, a phone call from sifu changed everything and i all i could do was lay in bed feeling majorly overwhelmed but no one there to receive