day 1913 – headway

feeling pleased with my back tuck and the progress i made this week. the motions seem smoother, the landing feels more comfortable and the flip as a whole feels stronger and tighter. it also helps i’ve been able to workout more like how i used to, getting some of my plyo movements closer to where they used to be. i feel like i just need that extra push to make the breakthrough i’ve longed. besides the back tuck, the webster and cartwheel also feels a lot better through the drills and extra reps

day 1881 – detention club

stayed after class for another two hours until they decided to lock up the garage doors. i worked at front tucks during the extra time, something i never enjoyed working on. i made progress and started to get the hang of it just by going through the motions. i sense my front tuck might be getting close and the extra time and hard work will pay off soon. the gang wanted to go grab a bite afterwards. i haven’t hung out with them outside before. i couldn’t turn it down; i guess i will have to use up my weekly cheat meal quota for this

day 1853 – back to flight

trust me i was feeling butterflies even in my veins straggling into the gym not knowing how my body will handle all the movements i’m about to do. aside from a few pieces of new equipment, everything about the place remained the same. i didn’t accomplish a whole lot, but getting through the class was an accomplishment within itself. i felt pleased that i had the guts to go head over heels on my first day back. i’ll take what i’m given for as long as my body takes to settle in. didn’t want to push it too hard and just want to be back tricking and flipping. i know that everything will start to click with time and repetition, but in the mean time it’s just putting in the work. work hard for what i want, but stay patient enough for what i’ve always wanted

day 1808 – meeting onslaught 

closing off the work week with a meeting filled friday. the onslaught of meetings is just starting now that design tech is almost a department of its own. i now have to sit in all the sop meetings and pod meetings. ending the friday with some flipping and a sashimi dinner with mom. i landed several flips on blue with phantom spots; i guess that’s progress but kind of slower than i’d like. maybe i need to work harder and force myself to do more repetitions each time

day 1340 – civil war

i’m stoked to hit the ice again as the war between friends, the civil war, kicks off tonight. the feeling of a pro when i arrive at the rink and my number 10 jersey is already hanging in the rabbits locker room. the self printed jersey is a nice touch. i’m told that i’m starting on the noob line but i’m in the running for that spot in the regular line. it goes to show that what i work for doesn’t go unnoticed. just keep working at it and improving my game every time; if that opportunity comes, i’m taking it

day 784 – regular correction

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going for regular maintenance to fix whatever needs to be fixed. there’s definitely progress and improvement in upholding itself for a longer stretch. recent experiments to stretch out the length between appointments and it’s mostly provided positive feedback, but there’s still shortcomings to maintain it completely. felt so weak today for some odd reason, struggled the whole way through and didn’t make it to the finish line for some. today the weights i normally do just wasn’t going to happen. must work harder, can’t let it slide anymore

day 763 – getting sweaty

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despite bouts of headaches and some sort of unknown illness, i was determined to start september on the right foot; the first of september means first of september. august had its ups and downs, but many things are about to change and things are really going to take off in september, i won’t let it slip away without getting what i want. in the meantime, keep grinding even when times are tough

resolution series: [twentythree] progress

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no one is perfect, but everyone is working towards being the best they can be. twelve years ago, when i first stepped foot in my physiotherapist’s clinic, i had no idea it would be such a long journey full of changes and learning curves. from a girl who couldn’t do a single exercise given to me no matter how basic. from a girl who wouldn’t put any effort into trying to do the exercises no matter what was assigned. to a girl who can now do all that plus weights and equipment thrown at me for different variations and increased difficulty. at that time, i bet my kinesiologists were very frustrated with me and wondered what was wrong with this girl because i didn’t put any effort in trying to complete any exercises they asked of me. through the years, they have opened my eyes to a whole new world, making me understand why i had to do what i was told. slowly i began to listen and understand how my body works and what i need to do for it. taekwondo didn’t start off easy for me, i went through some rough patches and stretches were i wasn’t feeling it. i wasn’t trying hard, i let things slip under the rug but gladly someone pulled me aside to let me know that half-assing wasn’t acceptable. he woke me up by telling me i shouldn’t settle for anything less for my best and never play down to my classmates’ level. if it weren’t for that lecture, i was probably ready to call it quits and would never have made it this far. i can safely say that there are many things that didn’t start off well but turned out well because someone out there decided to take it upon themselves to make me understand the importance of putting in the work and effort. ever since then, i have taken big strides in the right direction and to make the necessary progress

day 666 – long visit

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this is me being super bored when i had nothing better to do while waiting with not much doing at appointment this morning. i knew it was going to busy but had to squeeze it in before physio leaves to check up on my banged up legs and body. today also marks the fourth anniversary of my first foot fracture. never forget what i went through, always remember how hard i worked to stand back up. it’s a good feeling to look back and see how far i have come since being removed from the fracture and on my way for bigger and better things

resolution series: [nine] honesty

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being true to yourself means not cheating yourself because in the end you will realize you are only cheating yourself. there are no shortcuts in life because if it’s something worth achieving in life, it’s worth working for. the truth is often not easy to accept and sometimes it hurts deep down, but hurting is a good thing because it shows that it matters to you. i have fallen in that trap far too many times in the past and only recently have i realized how much wake up calls mean to me. i want to get better in this aspect because it is the only way to have continuous self improvements to be the best i can be. i find it far too easy for me to fall off track, but i am glad there’s people around me who stays honest with me and gives me the hard truth when i least expect it. i would be the first person to admit i am very stubborn and when i have a certain negative thought, it doesn’t wash away easily. i tend to let little slippages that slide away drag me down with it. it’s hard being a perfectionist because i have certain standards for myself and tend to put more stress and pressure on myself than need be. i will dwell on the mistakes and let them haunt me even if it is something very minor, but i suppose that’s not entirely a bad thing. if it is something that matters to me, i will not let that slip and only go out there to prove them wrong