day 1494 – eagles bluffing

speeding through eagle bluffs and shaving an hour off the average hiker time – not bad for the first hike of this summer. the first twenty minutes was the hardest, but having gotten past that is a chance to stand on this rock to look out from a vantage point. it’s good to get out to keep our annual outdoor adventure alive. the hike was good, the view was great, the legs are satisfyingly tired but still feeling unjustified. the damage of what’s said can’t be undone. it’s not the first time upsetting things have been said, but every time the disappointment hurts just as much

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day 1366 – lingering effects

slowly getting back to normally but there’s lingering effects both physically and mentally. somehow i am still hesitant and scared to eat regular food, or maybe i’m just worried i’ll get fat again. i’m hollow and empty inside, but i persuade myself i can wait it out. it’s one of those things i’d rather endure than being hurt and be scarred time after time. it affects me more than i’d ever want to talk about it