day 1579 – sunday workday

it started off having a laid back sunday morning before getting into work. good that i don’t have a 7:30am start on sunday as well so i could sleep in a little after a late night of partying. had no urgency to sleep after a night like this, but once in a while is okay. worked another blackbelt test and the rest of my time spent completing a bunch of modules. banking these extra hours hopefully to pay off and gets accredited for in the future


day 1572 – promotion test

after calling out the test for one hundred and thirty students, i get some well deserved mat time. it was insane for me to lead every individual group from white to red belt, more talking than i would do in a whole week. it was more oa test for me than the students as fifties and sixties is the normal range. i don’t think i’ll survive another one of these tests alone so another instructor better step up soon. got home after some window shopping and a long promotion test in time to have my first meal of the day just shy of nine o’clock

day 1557 – karaoke party

the start of saturday morning shifts has begun so i’ll be working nine straight hours on saturdays between two jobs. i wonder how long i will last with sixty four hour work weeks before i burn out. i was tired after the two shifts but doesn’t change my plans for an impromptu karaoke and board games night. i had a good night chilling with peeps. it was the fun i used to have; the good company kept from thinking why i’m still feeling solo all the time. it’s not a good feeling to always never have the support of the closest ones. i miss the times when i could be out way past midnight and actually have a night life

day 1466 – out there

i did not sleep much last night, or maybe didn’t sleep at all. instead, i drove out around and around thinking of so many harmful things and thinking i want to be out of this misery. then it’s like i woke up from a dream and went on with my life like every saturday – more of work. this day it’s all me holding up the whole class alone got me quite drained. good thing i didn’t up having some fun at drop in hockey or else i would probably have crashed at some point

day 1436 – neighborliness 

judging by the work i have to deal with today, work neighbor tried to lift my sugar level and spirit with some cocoa. even with the day that i was having at work, i still rather not get off work because i was dreading that meeting with sifu and simo. the reccurring theme of asking me to take on more than i already do. i don’t know how to make him understand i already have too much on my plate and no down time for myself

day 1404 – priority list 

fitbit shows me i need to put myself higher on the priority list and sleep a little more. sadly the amount i worked this week doubled the amount of sleep i got. i never really got a break and the start of another work week is in just a few hours away. i’m not looking forward to next week working all seven days. i am not always guaranteed a weekend, but at least this week i still have sunday off as a small breather

day 1313 – border crossing 

it’s been a good but tiring oregon trip with long drives to and from portland. on my way home after many hours spent in the car, long day of competition and irregular and malnutritioned meals. i’m content with the results and my personal performance and hope that this will get myself back on track. this might be what i needed to reinstate my mind and body to get the grind going again. now that the competition is behind me, i must gear down and focus because march will be a crazy month