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here’s a little side thought of the moment. i find myself always helping, always accommodating and always putting others well being before mine but sadly i don’t get the same in return. many of my efforts and achievements are undermined; taking what i do  and give for granted and ends up being borderline inconsiderate. not that i seek recognition; if it’s seen, it’s seen, i’m tired of trying show that i care. life is a two way street and sometimes being appreciative is a good thing. just snowballing and needed to get it off my chest

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respect myself

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there comes a time when i have to weigh in the goods and bads and determine what is best for me. i must stop serving others and stop doing things for the sake of doing things because life is not about what others want. i have a tendency of putting myself and my own well being in the backseat while always putting others first and making sure everyone else is content. part of the challenge of life is learning everyday, no matter who it may be and what stage of life you are at. lately, the advice crossed my mind to take the courage to step away from the things and commitments that no longer make me happy, that no longer gives me the satisfaction it once did. i feel like i am at a multi directional intersection where it’s time to make changes and decide what i want to hang onto, what i want to do, and what direction and aspect i want to take and improve upon. i would be the first to admit i take on a lot and not all are self chosen. my life would be a lot happier and a lot less grim once i determine what it is what drives my passion, and what commitments i need to leave behind. not saying that i will stop helping others, but first and foremost, i need to ensure that i have time for myself and am taken care of properly. i am urged to think more about myself and less of others; in other words listen to my beating of my own heart because my main purpose of existence is not serving the world. it may sound selfish, but i am simply trying to live and enjoy my life, just like how everyone else is

day 701 – oh canada

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canada day was exactly opposite of how a statutory holiday should be like; not only am i at work but i even worked overtime. it was a long and exhausting day with no shortage of frustrations and surprises throughout. so much effort, time, preparation, sweat and anger has been put in order to make this inter school competition possible, not only on the front end but also on the back end behind the scenes. on the bright side, today i got to see all my students put forth their efforts , many of which made great improvements. but man, was i ever tired at the end of the day and not many ounces of energy left in me