day 1214 – wearables

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playing with my newest gadget and the newly setup charge 2. my mom benefits from my investment because she inherited my old charge hr. teaching was very tiring and a killer for my throat today because i had be extra stern and strict. i find a lot of the students are getting a little laxed when it comes to discipline and self practice so i had to send a message and reestablish my expectations; i had to take more control and not let them get too comfortable in that state. good thing i only had to teach sergeant-like for three classes or i wouldn’t be able to talk at playoffs tomorrow

resolution series: [nine] honesty

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being true to yourself means not cheating yourself because in the end you will realize you are only cheating yourself. there are no shortcuts in life because if it’s something worth achieving in life, it’s worth working for. the truth is often not easy to accept and sometimes it hurts deep down, but hurting is a good thing because it shows that it matters to you. i have fallen in that trap far too many times in the past and only recently have i realized how much wake up calls mean to me. i want to get better in this aspect because it is the only way to have continuous self improvements to be the best i can be. i find it far too easy for me to fall off track, but i am glad there’s people around me who stays honest with me and gives me the hard truth when i least expect it. i would be the first person to admit i am very stubborn and when i have a certain negative thought, it doesn’t wash away easily. i tend to let little slippages that slide away drag me down with it. it’s hard being a perfectionist because i have certain standards for myself and tend to put more stress and pressure on myself than need be. i will dwell on the mistakes and let them haunt me even if it is something very minor, but i suppose that’s not entirely a bad thing. if it is something that matters to me, i will not let that slip and only go out there to prove them wrong

resolution series: [one] finish

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life presents many unexpected circumstances that act as distractions away from our intended goals. with so much going on in our daily lives, it’s easy to lose sight of what we need to focus on and follow through with. i always need to be reminded to finish whatever i started because i have the tendency of always wanting to give up when things get hard, particularly for things that i am not good at. i have been on the receiving end of many wake up calls and lectures that i must stop avoiding my weaknesses and in turn confront them head on. some things just came to me naturally; i need not to put much effort in to succeed. i have little problem following through with what i excel at but that cannot be said for things that didn’t come naturally. i excelled in swimming at a young age and swimming was my life. but when life got busy, i quit just short of getting my lifeguard certification and it still haunts me to this day. taekwondo came naturally early on but since i am so injury plagued, countless people tried to make me stop. but no matter how many times i fell and how many challenges and injuries i faced, i got back up and did what i needed to do. i wanted to prove everyone wrong and more importantly, i wanted to do this for myself and make up for my past regrets. running was never my thing as i found it boring and tiresome but i put in the effort to make improvements in this area. since i began taking rehab and strengthening exercises seriously, i have made leaps and bounds in my ability and recovery but there’s still a long way to go to get to where i want to be. so this year, i want to make my best effort to work on all those weaknesses and train it to become my strength. i know i cannot always carry self doubt with me everywhere, i just go out and make it happen

day 586 – wake up call

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recently, i feel i have lost the big picture and the overall purpose of what i am working towards. i knew i was not taking care of business the correct way but did little about it because i lost sight of my destination. thankfully i was given a wake up call to steer me back on track and make sure i understand what it is i have to do in order to up the determination. life doesn’t present itself in a straight path, but making sure i don’t fall off the cliff before i find my way