day 2302 – pajama shift

the luxury of working from home is i can wake up five minutes before and work in my pajamas. it’s a bit challenging working with one laptop-sized scree as opposed to two large monitors, but i’ve kept up. it’s been kind of good working remotely because i find my productivity level actually goes up. i also didn’t feel detached because i could use microsoft team to chat with friends within the office. the only drawback is having technical difficulties trying to connect my laptop to a conference call

day 2172 – federer wimbledon

waking up for a federer wimbledon final at 6am was never in question. although it pains me to see federer lose after pouring his heart out, his play was still amazing, matching his opponent shot for shot. in my heart he won the match because how unfortunate is it to lose three tiebreaks. i do however wish i had a chance to take a quick nap before a working a colour belt test. good thing it went smoothly and i can go home and use what’s left of the weekend to rest

day 2160 – hawaii tradeshow

back to work the day after a long weekend didn’t have me jumping out of bed for joy. i almost overslept because i had forgotten to turn on the recurring the alarm clock. good thing my fitbit alarm woke me up quarter past six. the day could have been even worse; at least i’m doing something fun like rendering for the hawaii tradeshow. no olympic lifting today like my regular tuesday because i had gone yesterday

day 2104 – flex day

took a flex day in anticipation that i’d be exhausted from a weekend of activities and i couldn’t be more correct. there was no way i would’ve been able to wake up at 6am for work. i slept in until 11am, and half the day was gone before i knew it. i really should be cleaning up, doing laundry and preparing food, but i mulled around and finished off my drama series. i went to flip and stayed until late despite my leg and ankle being crazily bruised up. good luck waking up for work tomorrow morning

day 1450 – coffee call

img_20200203_151551840606561820737859.jpgmanager wants me to take over more of the talking with each conference call so eventually he doesn’t even sit in with me. i fielded most of the design questions this time and he complimented after the meeting. i can finally breathe after a week of frantic preparation for a conference call with manager and outsource designers. my manager wanted me to take more initiative in the call. i desperately reached for an afternoon coffee after the long haul. the one time i wear white to work and i still coffee on my favorite white shirt

day 1422 – accompaniment 

dsc_0581.jpgmy precious sticking by my side morning and night. she’s there for hugs when i need it most and absorbs any burden i carry day in and day out; something i need more than ever before. accompanying me so to know that i’m not going through this phase alone. i get disappointed wondering where each person’s priorities are at. i’d go home frustrated and speechless, but at least i know i’m somebody’s top priority and i know that i’ll always have her even when everything ends. i’m beginning to feel i’m ready to pull the trigger and let go

day 687 – morning physio

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stumbled into the clinic still in half sleeping mode and physio was quick to take note. he figured giving me a bunch of crazy exercise was going to wake me up and increase my alertness. another stint on the muscle stim after a tiring routine, makes me believe that i will be doing muscle stim forever and ever. important visit today because i had messed up my knee and groin and needed to get that fixed heading towards montreal

day 614 – going and going

imageback for more late night gym after a long weekend of chilling and laziness. beginning of another week calls for more cardio and more weights, don’t let it stop because there’s no such thing as day off in my vocabulary. being committed and consistent is one of the biggest struggles of my life but i am trying my best to keep it up. random and periodic wake up calls from others play an important role for this reason

transitioning

imagewith so much happening in the next four months, getting it back to normal starting april will be crucial to everything upcoming in may, june and july. another wake up call is needed on this day because i have fallen off the tracks and been procrastinating far too often. it was as simple as stating the obvious and getting right to the point because i am stupid so going around the matter doesn’t really get the point across. upon hearing what was said, the analogy that i have been slapped in the face, punched in the gut and stabbed in the heart sounds about right; which could only mean everything said was spot on. the fact that it hurt and affected me could only mean good things because it means i care and now understand the effort i put forth is unacceptable. i am glad someone found an effective way to provoke me and light the fire i have from within. i cannot lose sight of my destination or forget about how far i want to go but all this cannot be achieved if i don’t start today and stick with it everyday after that. today is the day to start because just thinking about it does absolutely nothing and result in no progression. at least now i have awoken and will make the necessary changes to do what is right

day 570 – gambling in bed

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saturday mornings are hard to come by but first time i decide to go to bed early and i wake up far too early. sleeping has been overrated now that my body has accepted i will not give it more than 6 hours. i was woken up at 6:30am so laid in bed and played an hour of myvegas before falling back asleep. i haven’t played much for last little while and needed something to kill time