day 2290 – google toy

the first of five package to arrive is my newest google toy. during my recovery phase, i’ve got nothing better to do but to invest in online shopping. i’ve already missed my original targeted date in returning. the recovery progress is slowed and sometimes nonexistent. i’ve received four or five different diagnosis without a verdict. i can’t lie, but i’ve started to lose hope that even after resuming my activities, i will not do things nearly as good. part of me wonders if my ride is over and i’ll have to give up certain things that i really like

day 870 – check in with physio

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physio needed to see me and i needed to see physio to assess and treat that finger and other banged up body parts of mine before he goes on vacation. i am very relieved when he said he’s almost certain it’s not a fracture and just a terrible sprain. although i am disappointed when he said i should still continue to wear the splint whenever possible. he didn’t even bother stopping me from doing my sports cause he knows me well enough to understand that’s not going to happen. the new kinesiologist shadowing today had little clue of what exercises i am usually given, so it was a chill day until the regular stepped in and changed all that. it’s the post physio blenz remedy i enjoy every time

day 869 – by the litre

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i don’t drink much water or liquid in a day but i was up very late trying to down this bottle of litre water cause i said i would. so i fell off the track this week due to the uncertainties surrounding my finger which is ultimately the deciding factor for my next competition. i was very down and worried to say the least but only bottle up all those stresses and downplayed it as much as possible so not to let others worry. the past four days have been horrible; i spent much time being stressed and depressed, and couldn’t will myself to do anything. enough of being a pessimist, no matter what my physio says tomorrow, i am going to get myself back on track at being the best that i should be. don’t write me off until physio gives me the verdict. but even then, just because i don’t go to this competition, doesn’t mean i give up on my next competition