day 1614 – big cheers


time really does fly by quickly and another three hundred and sixty five posts later, it’s the eve again. as every year comes to an end, i make reflections but the difference is how i plan for the upcoming. 2017 had its challenges and the latter part was tough being involved in many unfortunate events.  here’s a toast to hoping for a good 2018 where my pretentious goals and big dreams come true. happy new year and stay true to yourself

day 1327 – belated celly

img_20200204_1715133577963831177299706.jpgour significant day was delayed but not forgotten; finally getting around to celebrating with some finer dining. it’s a stepping stone for both of us and a much deserved night out. we’ve shared a lot and made the most of everything. of course we’ve had our ups and downs and sometimes i can’t help but feel distant, but i’ll still try to take the good with the bad. in every relationship there’ll be a mix of surprises and disappointments, i chose so to dissipate it and not let it affect me too long and turn the page from the recent built up frustration

day 1138 – ktaping

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it drives me insane being away from the gym for so many consecutive days. with physio’s help, the ktape and painkiller, my body gave it a valiant effort but still had a tough time. even my high pain tolerance didn’t allow me to do things the way i should be able to. what does it take to get back to my normal?? the week was full of ups and downs but i still had a fun weekend living the normal life with mo. the time together makes us grow together; we need to learn to get through things both highs and Iows

day 1079 – partner in crime

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there were uncalled emotional moments which i couldn’t suppress. tears happened because i have been pretending to be strong for too long. i can count on him knowing he wants to be there during my worst and toughest moments. it has been very tough lately, but i know it’s much easier to weather the storm together. happy for the passing of another month; keeping it strong and keeping it real throughout

day 1060 – transpire

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sixteen timezones apart, no problem; a hundred timezones apart, still no problem. good friends keeping me afloat on this one because they will understand even when they don’t understand. she tells me you have to take their downs if you want to be a part of their ups; sometimes you fall because there’s something that you’re suppose to find. what i am searching for?? how deep do i have to dig?? that’s something i must find for myself

2015 at a glance

pulled together snapshots of some of my favourite and not so favourite moments of 2015. through this unfiltered eye, it pieces together my year and the things that took place behind the lens. it was 365 days of ups and downs, but having survived it all made me realize and learn more about myself. i have grown on many levels, taken strides to step out of my comfort zone and in the end, all that made me a better and stronger person more readied to tackle greater challenges. i will take all the lessons learned and head into the new year with the mindset of continuous progress and self improvement. 2015 had it’s moments – building the foundation and laying out the backbone necessary for success. i have a good feeling 2016 will be a year of many breakthroughs and personal achievements

day 861 – far far away

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the inevitable day has come and it’s really time to say goodbye. i have been wishing this day would never come, where we send you off to go back home. i hadn’t realize how influential you have been in my taekwondo career, both as a student and as an instructor. i am proud to say you are my great friend, instructor, coach and mentor. believe me, i would never have gotten this far without your support so thanks for teaching me so much and thanks for supporting me and my competition dreams in every way you could. the transition and move forward won’t be easy and i am feeling eerily uncertain about myself, but i will try my best to hold it together and continue towards the big stage. i wish you the best of luck in hong kong and look forward until we meet again

resolution series: [twentynine] walk away

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you can say life is both long and short. how much you get out of it is entirely up to you because you are in the driver’s seat controlling the wheel and choosing your path. the shotgun may have inputs on which route to take and passengers may try to initiate backseat driving, but in the end, you are steering the wheel and that’s what matters most. somehow i find an amusement park resembles a person’s life at different stages of life. each day is very much like a ferris wheel; there’s a routine and certain tasks you must complete and once that cycles one round, you get up and do it all over again. and then there’s a roller coaster where it takes much time to build up and then go from absolute high to the uttermost low in a matter of seconds, or milliseconds. the hardest part of life is living a life doing things you hate doing. makes waking up every morning that much harder than it already is. it’s time i learn to step away from the things i dread doing and concentrate on striving for the things i like. maybe a change is in order to leave behind the load of what isn’t my responsibility and pursue what i am passionate about. in the end it is taking the good out of the grand scheme of things and making the most out of what you can, not what you are given. if you don’t like what are you doing, don’t follow blindly, walk away and choose your own destiny

resolution series: [twentyfive] quarter life

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each year there are many birthdays to celebrate, my mom, dad, brother, friends, coworkers, and of course my own. each and every year as it gets closer to my birthday, i start to feel a little more stressed knowing time is passing me by quicker than i can imagine. it scares me watching the time go by so fast and soon i will be at another stage in life. but before then there’s a lot more other things to worry about. for instance, school is up, what’s next?? what will my future hold, how will my career turn out, what will my relationship status be, how will i be able to cope with all these changes?? so many questions and so many unanswered questions waiting to be answered. in school we were given answer keys to determine whether we have the right or wrong answers; in life, that’s rarely the case. at this point in life, there are so many open ended questions and little knowledge of where to find the answers. this is when quarter life crisis kicks in and gets the best of us. i am no master at dealing with this, as i, myself, am still trying to figure things out. all i can say is take life as it is given, things start off with lots of uncertainties, but as time goes by, it will start to clear up. i’ve always been told everything will be okay in the end; if it’s not okay, its not the end.

resolution series: [eight] weed out people

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in the path that i have traveled along, i have met a lot of people each with their own characteristics and personality. as i cross path with more and more people going towards different destinations, i have recognize those who are true friends. there are those who i enjoy hanging out with, those who share the same interest and goals, and those who i feel comfortable opening up to. you guys fill my life and make me a happier person. together we go through ups and downs; we laugh together and cry together. we share a lot of good times and good memories that i will take with me and i hope you cherish it as much as i do. the older i grow, i find it more crucial to learn to surround myself with positive people who can make it a better and more complete person. negative people have no place in my life because they only distraction towards what i want to achieve. i have been working hard to eliminate all those haters out there that doesn’t support my choices nor approve of my success. i am grateful for all the people who have stuck around in my life and made me feel accepted and wonderful even when not in my most optimal condition. i am sad for those friends i cherish but inevitably have to temporarily separate in order to chase our own destiny. i understand life is a long journey full of dreams and possiblities so no matter how many miles and oceans we are separated by, i believe that we will one day be destined to cross path again