day 2163 – sharing difficulties

a subpar session and horrible stretch has left me frustrated as ever. even the boston pizza spicy thai chicken wrap sitting in front of me didn’t change my appetite or mood. i didn’t expect to have this talk with the flightclub crew, but i realize we’ve become close friends that i’m okay with letting them in on some of my thoughts and feelings, and they also shared theirs. lately, lots of negative thoughts were floating through my head, all of which left me empty. feeling discouraged with the training and progress as of late, i was beginning to accept my fate in my freestyle dream. i opened up and almost cried, but they listened and seemed to understand what i’m going through. maybe they finally realize the strong outer shell i uphold isn’t so strong on the inside

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day 2143 – short day

it was an unexpectedly short saturday compared to any of my normal. i woke up for a chiropractor appointment, taught taekwondo classes, had dinner with parents and passed out before 9pm. i couldn’t even stay awake sitting, so i had to bail on hockey last minute which i felt really bad about. i guess the combination of jetlag, crazy late friday night, early saturday morning and a tiring solo teaching shift got the best of me

day 2082 – secret backtuck

it was a gruesome four hour long colour belt test that saw one hundred and fifteen students. my lungs were exhausted after calling out instructions nonstop, but i’m committed to doing a back tuck every time i step in the dojo. i tried to do it while the grandmaster was out of sight lines but because my mental setup isn’t instant, he walked back into the frame in time to see it take place. he reacted in a way i didn’t expect – very surprised and encouraging. i expected warnings from him to avoid high risk moves, but instead he showed interest and excitement in my ability to do acrobatics and even asked to send him the video. i wasn’t happy with that particular flip because i could only muster a tired flip, but the footage is now on his facebook page

day 2043 – dodgeball rolling

first week of the dodgeball season for me and not a very good start at all. i landed on the ball and immediately knew that shit just happened. now i have no good ankle to stand or walk on. the first thought that went through my head was how much pain i was in, but rather how i could get back cause i have flips to do and hockey games to play. to look at it postuvely, it’s still early in the dodgeball season so i’ll be able to get back

day 1550 – sad truth

what a turn of events in the past forty eight hours; the hours i wish never happened. can’t say i’m not thoroughly disappointed, but can’t let one disappointment dictate how i live. no matter how i move forward with life, i’ll make sure what i choose puts me as a priority. sad but true that those i least expect to care for me cares more than those i thought would take care of me. it’s quite clear with the choices made and the actions taken, or not taken. i found out where i stand – nowhere in comparison to the many activities. any day could be my last day; if today was, one thing i’d regret is settling even not having been treated properly

day 1260 – drafting

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survived the first day of class and my first assignment is already handed in at the end of class. this isn’t what i was expecting when i read the course description, hand drafting all over again. i haven’t exactly got the prerequisite for this class either but the instructor said i don’t have to worry since my assignment was done well. it’s been a fifteen hour day; my brain is so exhausted and i’m utterly pooped. it was bedtime by the time i got home

day 1042 – fair ground

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it’s just like any other night hanging out high above the ground, except not. it’s just the same old me climbing on all inanimate objects, except different. it’s just one of those nights i wasn’t feeling like me and did a few unexpected things out of my norm. i have held it long enough and i knew it was only a matter of time before i blew. i don’t know if i made the right decision, but i made one and will stick by it