day 1440 – plating

my kineis put one plate heavy squats on the rehab menu and i delivered. he was impressed, and i was sort of too; he even said he underestimated me all this time. my squats felt pretty good today despite my head feeling really off from the moment i woke up at 6am. work was especially busy as i have a deadline this week; downed a few advils and onwards with work. geared down and pushed through the rest of work, tutor, meeting and then rehab. i feel a lot better halfway through my rehab stint; my body is more intact and stable as opposed to a wreck eight weeks ago

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believe myself

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i told myself time after time that i wouldn’t spill because i shouldn’t let any negativity ruin my holiday mood, and then things happened again which really put me over the top. people never realize how much crap i take from others. i take them in like a sponge, but it never dissipates. i just bury my emotions deep inside so no one can see; hidden so well others forget i have feelings, so well sometimes i forget too. i brush it off like it doesn’t hurt but it does. i just wished people were a little more sensitive with their comments and actions.  my silence just means i chose to hold my thoughts in, but the feeling of disconnect and exclusion still exists. it hurts assumptions were made without understanding how hard i worked. those who haven’t seen me at my worst have no idea what i’ve gone through and what it was like to get here. don’t look down upon me and make presumptions that i’m not good enough. i’ve worked far too hard for anyone to tell me otherwise. i learned that even when i’m belittled, i’ll still believe in myself because i’ve proven i can stand alone. sometimes a little consideration goes a long way because never underestimate the power of the little things that make a big difference

 

day 1041 – spartan everyday

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after having done my first ever spartan race on saturday, i feel like i could be a spartan everyday. i happily hit the gym on sunday, underestimating what my body had gone through. i only came to realization as i woke up this morning that my legs were jello. i could make excuses for myself, but mondays are never rest days for me – training must be done and dodgeball must go on. pushed myself really hard through a grueling training session today. my legs were no longer under me come dodgeball time, but i enjoy the feelings of pure exhaustion and these are the kind of things i want to be doing

day 984 – water walks

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walking along the water just after sunset to wind down a great weekend full of activities. looking out into the water into the distant buildings and city lights gives us time to appreciate each other and recognize all that we have in our lives. never underestimate how a little time and the little things could add up to make a huge difference. cherish all the moments because time passes us by so much quicker than we expect it. so don’t let the chances slip away; express your thoughts, feelings with the deepest sincerity

day 698 – z3 upgrade

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i finally got the phone i have been dreaming and drooling about for the past year. feels like just yesterday i thought i convinced myself to settle with the z3 and today it’s another upgrade to the all new z3+ cause i know i couldn’t settle for anything less. don’t underestimate the slightest addition of the plus because it makes the difference in the world and worth the nine hundred dollars i invested. super stoked to finally get my hands on sony’s flagship phone of the year, i am sure my eyes glow when staring at the phone