day 2284 – inflammable

both my ankles started to swell up hours after my prp treatment, the right one more so than the left. i couldn’t move it up or down and i felt the internal battle and the pain within my bloodstream. the spots were tender from the needle injections and the area was burning hot. needless to say, i had a very rough and restless night because the pain was so much. i’ve never had it so bad that thoughts of amputation crept into my mind. i literally crawled to get tylenol hoping to catch some shut eye

day 2029 – sick day

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instead of going into work, i stayed at home all day because i woke up with a headache, sore throat and the feeling that i’m fending off an oncoming cold. after calling in sick at 7am, i managed to sleep until past 1pm. sleeping fourteen hours is a really, really rare occasion since i usually get six or less. i logged a total of less than two thousand steps so my fitbit probably thought i was dying

day 1776 – refresher break

getting to work on time was really difficult today because i felt like i never slept during the night. i couldn’t fall asleep until after 2am and was woken up twenty past four. i felt like crap at work the whole day. i could’ve easily gone home early, but too much u work in my queue i couldn’t even think about taking some time off for a nap. if it wasn’t for some tylenols and this refresher, i wouldn’t have last the whole day of work plus a couple hours of teaching

day 1519 – gym needs

headache at work got pretty bad again to the point where i didn’t seem useful and should just go home. but i stayed and kept thinking the tylenol will kick in soon enough. i was only looking forward to going to the gym, and stubborn enough even if i were to collapse during. i really wanted to since i haven’t made up for the missed monday and i wasn’t about to do another shuffle nor write off this week

day 1518 – office props

this workstation of mine is filled with recovery props and drugs. my headache erratic and unpredictable; it seems to get better and worse whenever it wants. at it’s worst, my head feels like it’s being compressed and there’s no enough oxygen the flows through. my immune system may already be used to the constant supply of tylenols. i tried really hard to work through it, but there’s a point that i thought i should go home instead of suffering through this at work. i probably shouldn’t have taken on tutor after work and get more rest as needed, but i don’t like canceling last minute

day 1435 Рmonotonous 

img_20200203_1513566580734750671200953.jpganother day and another sleep deprived night. it was hard enough to fall asleep, but it was harder to stay asleep; i couldn’t stop waking up thinking i overslept. the discomfort today got so much i resorted to some tylenol so to dull the discomfort. for the rest of the day it felt like a drag and i wasn’t really present. i had no appetite by dinner time i didn’t even bother. affected me everywhere at rehab and even just lying down

day 1410 – marathoner

it was a marathon day. robot league playoffs followed by a hockey triple header for blings, chicks and sticks, and civil war, all consecutive with an hour rest combined. chiro was not thrilled but in the end he let it be and allowed me go through with it. i had much fun playing in playing in tier 5 hockey for my first time. so glad that higher tier game was the first followed by middle tier and then low because i was out of gas by drop in. my si joint started to give me sharp pains again in the second series of playoffs. it seems like tylenol is part of my diet nowadays just so i can satisfy my basic movements. it would be a lot more fun when i can play pain free again. when will that be??

day 1378 – recoil

found my blue jersey just in time for spring season opener tonight. it was a fun game, getting our first win of the season helps. my ribcage feels so aggravated i had to pop more tylenols. it’s not a good sign when even lying down hurts. the constant recoil is a concern because it’s never been so unstable before. it’s calling for another visit to the chiropractor office this week. i’m starting to think the whiplash from the car accident jolted something out of place without me knowing it. i’m starting go feel like

day 1375 – over it

img_20200204_1604123942232969993522592.jpgthese things inadvertently keep me up at night. it’s been in the back of my mind recently and today put me over the top. perhaps i’m emotionally tired from tylenoling myself for the three jammed ribs. one thing i’ve set on is giving up on expectations of certain things if the importance was never placed to begin with. i don’t feel the same and i’m frustrated, but at the same time indifferent because i’m not about to press for something that cannot be attained. i’ve learned it was never there for me and if it mattered it’d stick

day 1218 – irregularities

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i’ll get use to leaving the house when the sky is still pitch black. but it’ll take much more to adapt to sleeping earlier. stationary objects orbiting around me probably means something isn’t functioning properly. felt so faint for much of the day with a banging headache and stomachache. something is definitely wrong but i’m not sure what; i just know i don’t want to take drugs