the feeling of being trapped got too much i had to go find myself some quiet space this morning before work. i don’t like how i’m feeling about myself and really trying to snap out of this funk. the effects of this results in me making poor choices and decisions that only puts me further from where i want to be. i can’t seem to control the slight weight gain lately. i’m so weary day after day that i can’t find the motivation and have any kind of reset
since all work is cancelled for me today, i spent a full day trying to get tested. i went out to door crash the burnaby covid testing site, only to be sent back with a time slip to return at 4pm. i went back at my specified time to begin the lineup process. it was a painful two plus hour wait and then a ten minute testing procedure. they stuck something really deep up my nose, it almost felt like they were poking my eyes and brain. it was an exhausting day of running around and being trapped inside a vehicle. now i just got to wait for the results and self isolate in the meantime
crazy quarantine time isn’t the most ideal way to spend any birthday, but with no place to dine in, my brother will have to settle for a sushi takeout dinner. we also changed it up and brought an ice cream cake from dairy queen. it was quite the nostalgic taste because we haven’t had it since our teenage years. i really hope this covid situation has significant improvements soon so we won’t be trapped in our homes desperately looking for things to entertain ourselves with
sadly, i slept in and missed the raptors limited edition shoe launch. spent majority of the time at home and mostly in my room because i don’t want to get anyone in my family sick. it’s been a really weird and rough stretch for me the past few weeks. i’ve dealt with a foot injury where after six assessments by different physicians, the final diagnosis is still u determine to date. yet, i still am restricted to basically not do anything i usually do. i’m now trapped with this sickness tagged as bronchitis, but i also have a cold and both combined keeps me up coughing all night long, and gives me a headache when i’m not in bed
a traffic nightmare at ironwood intersection after work. some coworkers decided not to wait in line and went to the riverside, others walked to the plaza for dinner. i on the other hand waited in line and was trapped for over forty minutes before i got onto number five road. instead of waiting more at knight bridge, i went straight to the gym to do an upper body workout instead
had the luxury to sleep in until eleven, like what most people would do on sundays. i decided to skip powerskating because i’ve lacked sleep all week not to mention stiff from two hockey games. woke up and realized it was it was snowing outside. my plans of meeting with friends had to be canceled because it of the unsafe road conditions. i even had to miss out my workout and open gym flipping. i can only imagine what it’s like up on the mountain today
i intentionally trapped myself in my own world today. i didn’t leave the house, didn’t want to talk, didn’t want to think, didn’t want to eat, didn’t want to do anything. i feel more so stressed and hopeless; i have nothing to prove. it all works to my advantage since my ankle couldn’t move anyways. some disturbing thoughts floated around my mind today, but they were dismissed before it got too far. nothing was done as if today never happened
after a thirteen hour flight, i have safely landed at hong kong airport. during the long flight, i napped, ate, wrote and watched movies; i only got up twice to use the washroom. my back and legs are extremely stiff and i seriously couldn’t help but to miss the gym already
my parents flew in earlier last week. however, i was a surprise visitor; no one knew i was going to make an appearance. when i rang my grandma’s doorbell, she was so stunned she was at a loss of words. she reminds me i haven’t been back to visit since 2013? i am always amazed at her memory; hard to imagine a ninety year old has a better memory than me. thankfully it’s not as hot as i expected it to be for this time of the year, but i heard it was pretty hot and humid a few days ago
of course gym is not the only thing i miss back in vancouver. i already miss mo dearly. i always glance at my watch wondering how he’s doing and what he is up to. i hope he’s working hard back home and catching up with people he hasn’t seen for a while
although i slept on the plane, going through so many flights and the troubles of getting on and off them has been taxing. i really wanted to wait until mo was awake before i head to bed but my head and eyes were hurting. it was time to call it a day
much of the day was spent trapped in a confined plane, but i finally made it out to see some light. it’s kind of hard to keep track since i lose a day due to crossing numerous time zones. luckily the seat next to mine was not occupied, which made the thirteen hour flight a tad better. during the plane ride, i jotted down many things in my notebook including some upcoming plans, goals, thoughts and reflections that i want to attack and achieve once i get from this trip. i also got a chance to watch the movie fantastic four
the weather is humid but fortunately it’s not too hot today. everything went smoothly as i took the double decker out of airport and my parents were there to meet me at the terminus station near my grandma’s place. it has been a week since i saw my parents; they were very glad to see me, and so was i. i went to bed before 11pm because plane rides are very taxing
still trapped at home feeling unwell. instead of being my active self out there at gym and dodgeball, i spent way too much time on my bed. i am usually a trooper and will stop at very little; this just isn’t one of those times. i hate being sick because everything i need to do gets put to a halt and even backtracks. to look at things on the bright side, at this point last winter, i was already sick four times compared to this year’s first
not quite sure what i did to my calf, but one was hurting so much i could barely walk down the stairs. stayed home all day and barely had any activity, my fitbit probably thought i was dead. at last i couldn’t take it anymore and had to go out to the gym because i felt trapped and uninspired. since i wasn’t very mobile, the decision probably didn’t make sense to many, but it did for me. i felt both my brain and my body were rotting at home and needed the boost – surely it must be signs of gym withdrawal
winter has begun and my beemer is skidding an sliding even on very thin snow. this is when i really miss my old all wheel drive acura and its snow tires. i am not looking forward to anymore snow in the city but please snow more on the mountain top because i cannot afford to be trapped at home on snowy days. i can already fore see winter seasons giving more problems than my car can handle
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