day 2002 – attire change

showed up to work dressed a little different today. the attire is different from my usual; a new turtle neck and cardigan. the colours of my wardrobe has a high level of consistency; still wearing my typical blacks and greys. though i was feeling a little insecure, i also felt a little more confident at the same time. the long weekly meeting i had with my manager in the morning was kind of important to me because it was i have felt a bit more distant from him since the transition. after our talk about catalytic coaching, i felt like i had a better sense of direction

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day 1279 – dodgeball night

red pockets up for grab at rdl because we wanted to share the joy of chinese new year. i fell to a low point yesterday, but i rebooted and had a good start to the week. it helps as i’m transitioning into a new program. day one felt a lot better and stronger than what i had on paper. i’m proud that i could withstand whatever came at me and i can’t wait to see how far this program will take me

day 1254 – new stick

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it’s a pity i made it all the way to the gym but had to turn around because my sugar level dropped pretty low. instead, i went home and hope it will be resolved by feeding myself. when i did feel better, i started fiddling with my sticks to get amped up. i’m stoked to play my first game of the year with a new stick tonight. i think the nexus will be a good transitional stick especially with the change in flex. i’m turning my tacks into a backup. it also gives me a chance to try out different curves

day 861 – far far away

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the inevitable day has come and it’s really time to say goodbye. i have been wishing this day would never come, where we send you off to go back home. i hadn’t realize how influential you have been in my taekwondo career, both as a student and as an instructor. i am proud to say you are my great friend, instructor, coach and mentor. believe me, i would never have gotten this far without your support so thanks for teaching me so much and thanks for supporting me and my competition dreams in every way you could. the transition and move forward won’t be easy and i am feeling eerily uncertain about myself, but i will try my best to hold it together and continue towards the big stage. i wish you the best of luck in hong kong and look forward until we meet again

transitioning

imagewith so much happening in the next four months, getting it back to normal starting april will be crucial to everything upcoming in may, june and july. another wake up call is needed on this day because i have fallen off the tracks and been procrastinating far too often. it was as simple as stating the obvious and getting right to the point because i am stupid so going around the matter doesn’t really get the point across. upon hearing what was said, the analogy that i have been slapped in the face, punched in the gut and stabbed in the heart sounds about right; which could only mean everything said was spot on. the fact that it hurt and affected me could only mean good things because it means i care and now understand the effort i put forth is unacceptable. i am glad someone found an effective way to provoke me and light the fire i have from within. i cannot lose sight of my destination or forget about how far i want to go but all this cannot be achieved if i don’t start today and stick with it everyday after that. today is the day to start because just thinking about it does absolutely nothing and result in no progression. at least now i have awoken and will make the necessary changes to do what is right