day 3809 – light tape

i’ve asked physio to make the calls because i’m not good at making these decisions for myself. he put a light tape job for me to train with and this would be the first time since the turbulence back in december. i’m a little afraid to be honest, but i have full trust in his decisions if he thinks it’s ready for it. what he says goes and my job as an athlete is to listen and put in the work. this mental game is not fun and i’m not sure if i’m strong enough to make this transition

day 3753 – flywheel time

my usual kbox session before checking in with physio and i think i’m getting better with the power output. placed kettlebells to weigh it down so i don’t lift the box off and fly off. my shoulder felt a bit off after those recordings but that’s expected when i’m putting in a little extra and may have went a little beyond its comfortable range. physio mentioned the transition to without tape will have to be made at some point and that could be a sticky point. that sounded really daunting in my mind and i couldn’t get that thought out of my head the rest of the night

day 2609 – unspotted wall flips

i didn’t think it would happen second day back drilling this trick, but i did my very first wall flip on my own tonight. though it’s my first, i’m not counting it just yet because i know i can make it cleaner and better. i’m just so excited that my coach trusted me and took a step back, while i took a leap of faith and committed to my first one. honestly hands off from my spotter is always a huge step for me because i’ve always had a problem of holding back when that transition needs to take place

day 2002 – attire change

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showed up to work dressed a little different today. the attire is different from my usual; a new turtle neck and cardigan. the colours of my wardrobe has a high level of consistency; still wearing my typical blacks and greys. though i was feeling a little insecure, i also felt a little more confident at the same time. the long weekly meeting i had with my manager in the morning was kind of important to me because it was i have felt a bit more distant from him since the transition. after our talk about catalytic coaching, i felt like i had a better sense of direction

day 1279 – dodgeball night

red pockets up for grab at rdl because we wanted to share the joy of chinese new year. i fell to a low point yesterday, but i rebooted and had a good start to the week. it helps as i’m transitioning into a new program. day one felt a lot better and stronger than what i had on paper. i’m proud that i could withstand whatever came at me and i can’t wait to see how far this program will take me

day 1254 – new stick

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it’s a pity i made it all the way to the gym but had to turn around because my sugar level dropped pretty low. instead, i went home and hope it will be resolved by feeding myself. when i did feel better, i started fiddling with my sticks to get amped up. i’m stoked to play my first game of the year with a new stick tonight. i think the nexus will be a good transitional stick especially with the change in flex. i’m turning my tacks into a backup. it also gives me a chance to try out different curves

day 861 – far far away

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the inevitable day has come and it’s really time to say goodbye. i have been wishing this day would never come, where we send you off to go back home. i hadn’t realize how influential you have been in my taekwondo career, both as a student and as an instructor. i am proud to say you are my great friend, instructor, coach and mentor. believe me, i would never have gotten this far without your support so thanks for teaching me so much and thanks for supporting me and my competition dreams in every way you could. the transition and move forward won’t be easy and i am feeling eerily uncertain about myself, but i will try my best to hold it together and continue towards the big stage. i wish you the best of luck in hong kong and look forward until we meet again

transitioning

imagewith so much happening in the next four months, getting it back to normal starting april will be crucial to everything upcoming in may, june and july. another wake up call is needed on this day because i have fallen off the tracks and been procrastinating far too often. it was as simple as stating the obvious and getting right to the point because i am stupid so going around the matter doesn’t really get the point across. upon hearing what was said, the analogy that i have been slapped in the face, punched in the gut and stabbed in the heart sounds about right; which could only mean everything said was spot on. the fact that it hurt and affected me could only mean good things because it means i care and now understand the effort i put forth is unacceptable. i am glad someone found an effective way to provoke me and light the fire i have from within. i cannot lose sight of my destination or forget about how far i want to go but all this cannot be achieved if i don’t start today and stick with it everyday after that. today is the day to start because just thinking about it does absolutely nothing and result in no progression. at least now i have awoken and will make the necessary changes to do what is right