day 1621 – big lifts

had an extremely late night but woke up early with a few things in mind. hitting the gym was mandatory, for today is designated for strength. the few hours of shut eye took a toll on me and took me a few hours to halt the lethargy. since i anticipated on training, i didn’t want to eat and went with the banana i stuffed down an hour ago. making my way to the gym with an empty stomach and was probably a horrible idea. i knew it was going to be a grind, but feels good to still have gotten through the heavy big lifts. with all that delay, i didn’t get any food in me until roughly half past five. need to be cautious not to be malnutritioned where all my meals are jumbled up like today 


day 1616 – lift game

first day of work really means first day of work both at the office and at the gym. i have come to a place to start strong, finish strong to become strong. lifting became a habit in the past years and it’s a lifestyle i wouldn’t want it to be otherwise. it’s the place that acts as an outlet, where i can be myself because this is like home. the home away from home where i work away building my temple day by day, night by night. i’m nowhere near where i want to be yet but i will be here improving myself for as long as i can

shaping 2018

2017 was challenging that staggered between many emotions, some happy, some successful, some difficult, some burdensome and some heartbreaking moments. i was struck by my most depressing moments that resulted in bottling up emotions where self destruction happened. underneath the outer shell, was three hundred and sixty five days of constant battle that left many unseen scars. after this three hundred sixty five day battle, i came to realize i had ample growth: grew stronger, became braver, gained experience and expanded my knowledge. the struggles gave me a different perspective in life, the achievements gave me hope to to continue to climb. life is a journey defined by how well one copes after being knocked down. looking forward into the next twelve months, i’ll regroup and pull myself together to find my strong. i’m a fighter and won’t stop short of reaching my goal. as long as i stay strong, keep grinding and never settle for less than my full potential. life is about betterment and i’m committed to being the strongest version of myself

the latter part of 2017 wasn’t the best of days and was a true test of patience. the long drought, the fluctuating health, the seesawing emotions were all big obstacles, but i made sure all loose ends were closed. waving 2017 goodbye knowing 2018 has much more for me in store

  • get back healthy and stay as injury-free as possible
  • consistent training and eating with proper sleep
  • step up my game and take it to the next level
  • setting my priorities and boundaries
  • love myself for who i am, love my family, love my friends
  • stay focused towards advancement
  • attain more designations
  • save up for the numbers game
  • explore and travel the world
  • devote more time on what sets my heart on fire
  • step out of my comfort zone and expand my horizon
  • acknowledge being a workaholic but appreciate the little things

i’m ready to start 2018 off strong and be the stubborn goal digger that i am. just remember the best has yet to come

day 1268 – baby steps


i am so happy i finally made the two plate club for deads. it was a long time coming; i came close six weeks ago but injuries plagued me. all the baby steps i have taken to get back makes this milestone that much more rewarding. it happened all because you once told me you believed i could, so i took your words to heart and worked at it. i’m encouraged because of your encouraging words. just goes to show how powerful words can be and a little positive vibe can get me farther than i thought i could

day 1192 – fizz see oh


getting my maintenance work in for my beat up body so i can continue to beat up my body. i like to be active and i will continue to be for as long as i can. physio did mention he was very pleased with how well i held up for as long as i have been away. it’s also nice to hear from others that they’ve noticed my improvement and acknowledge what i can do; that’s a compliment i’ll gladly take. i’m here because you inspired and challenged me to be, but i’ll never be satisfied with myself because i know i can always be better

day 1178 – get up and go


felt strong on this friday morning workout; the reset probably had some affect. still didn’t manage much sleep but energy level was decent enough to push through as the day unfolded. getting through the lifts a little easier with each successive workout, but i’ll keep it as is until i get back from portland. a week out of competition, i am not quite sure how i am feeling. competition aside, i’m unclear why i ¬†feel the way i do, or maybe it doesn’t even matter anymore

day 1120 – try, try, try again


snatching is one of the harder lifts i have come across, but that makes me want to get it that much more. practicing them can be frustrating at times because i give up too easily and fail to lock out. i wasn’t satisfied with the many failed attempts and low success rate so i was determined to keep going until i finally got it. by the end of it, i must have made at least thirty attempts. my back took a hard hit from the barbell, but rewatching my videos motivate me. there’s no better feeling than not giving up to succeed in something i wanted