day 2487 – lights out

wrapped up a long training session that was just shy of four hours. it was a gratifying session where most things i practiced felt pretty good and i broke past some small barriers. started off with some basic front tuck drills and loading my cartwheel. eventually was allowed to take it blue mat and had better take offs and higher landings. my back tucks felt strong leaving the ground and landing higher. my back handspring is at a point where i can do two warm-ups and take it to floor. definitely felt more comfortable connecting my cartwheel back handspring and need not to cover up the edge. the one thing i wasn’t too happy with was my webster because it still feels so broken

optimizing 2020

2019 presented me with some of the biggest and scariest obstacles thus far. i am relieved this difficult year is drawing to a close and can now look forward to the turn of the decade. what i had endured this year far exceeds anything i could’ve imagined. my world changed drastically since the thudding landing of a roundoff back tuck attempt that went undetected. it was confirmed nine months later that it was a fully ruptured ankle ligament and the future of my many hobbies are on the line. though operating far below one hundred percent, i did manage some accomplishments that made me proud. i picked up one of my old hobbies at the start of the year – olympic weightlifting. from struggling to snatch twenty-eight kilos when i first started training at apex, to ending the year strong with a personal record of forty five kilos. just as i thought i was done with all my taekwondo tests, i somehow got persuaded and tested for my fourth dan. it was rather a risky thing to do given my ankle condition, but of course it wasn’t something i told many about. one bright spot in tricking was getting comfortable with my back tucks, and even tried two different variations. frankly speaking, i’m disappointed with the lack of progress in my other moves and scared to find out if i can even kick. i have at some point considered quitting if one of the three new moves doesn’t happen within a given deadline. there was no shortage of injuries throughout this calendar year which also affected taekwondo, hockey, dodgeball, softball and tennis. my skillset at work has had notable growth, but not to be overshadowed by the stressed that comes with it simply because of the toxic people. removing the toxicity has led me to grow my friends circle within other departments

with the new decade approaching, there’s really no place for injuries in 2020; i’m going to try my hardest to deal with the ankle problem while staying as healthy as i possibly can. i expect to get my fitness back and work my hardest to grind through whatever it takes to be the best version of myself. the next three hundred and sixty five days will be all about bigger goals, greater happiness, less pain, stronger relationships and being more focused for everything i’ve ever wanted

  • stay healthy and injury-free #gethealthystayhealthy
  • training consistency #fitgoals
  • eat well #eatsmart
  • accept myself for who i am #selfcare
  • love my family #familymatters
  • reconnect with friends #friendscircle
  • relationship goals #relationship goals
  • finance and budgeting #budgetlife
  • travel the world #roamtheplanet
  • career advancement #careerdevelopment
  • setting my priorities #prioritiesincheck
  • new skills and new knowledge #foreverlearning

2020 is my year to conquer and i’m going to become the strongest version of myself

day 2240 – bench view

playing on the wing and trying to keep up beside two very experienced linemates. i had an assist in the game, but honestly i was disappointed with my own play misjudging some and not converting on the many chances. flipping before games really takes the legs out, but i think i just need to train my legs harder to get them into better shape. this will be a long season ahead, let’s get it

day 2084 – green plate snatch

one of my initial goal when i first started lifting at apex was to fix my snatch, and to eventually snatch the green plates. i’m so happy to have finally achieved that goal today. each time i’m at apex, i’ve been making progress and breaking my personal record from the previous session. even i cannot believe i’ve worked my way up to a one hundred and forty front squat. i’m sure as long as i keep working hard and tightening my techniques, i’ll shatter more personal records one after another. now i’m beginning to wonder if snatching the yellows is an achievable goal

day 1827 – quick reminder

thank you for dropping this quote off on my desk because it saved me from going down a rabbit hole. i have always been a firm believer that discipline is what got me farther than i would have imagined and this time is no different. coincidentally it’s the turn of a calendar month which is the perfect time to pick myself up and try to turn things around. i’m set on making august a good month and get back to where i need to be – my top form

day 1621 – big lifts


had an extremely late night but woke up early with a few things in mind. hitting the gym was mandatory, for today is designated for strength. the few hours of shut eye took a toll on me and took me a few hours to halt the lethargy. since i anticipated on training, i didn’t want to eat and went with the banana i stuffed down an hour ago. making my way to the gym with an empty stomach and was probably a horrible idea. i knew it was going to be a grind, but feels good to still have gotten through the heavy big lifts. with all that delay, i didn’t get any food in me until roughly half past five. need to be cautious not to be malnutritioned where all my meals are jumbled up like today 

day 1616 – lift game

first day of work really means first day of work both at the office and at the gym. i have come to a place to start strong, finish strong to become strong. lifting became a habit in the past years and it’s a lifestyle i wouldn’t want it to be otherwise. it’s the place that acts as an outlet, where i can be myself because this is like home. the home away from home where i work away building my temple day by day, night by night. i’m nowhere near where i want to be yet but i will be here improving myself for as long as i can

shaping 2018

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2017 was challenging that staggered between many emotions, some happy, some successful, some difficult, some burdensome and some heartbreaking moments. i was struck by my most depressing moments that resulted in bottling up emotions where self destruction happened. underneath the outer shell, was three hundred and sixty five days of constant battle that left many unseen scars. after this three hundred sixty five day battle, i came to realize i had ample growth: grew stronger, became braver, gained experience and expanded my knowledge. the struggles gave me a different perspective in life, the achievements gave me hope to to continue to climb. life is a journey defined by how well one copes after being knocked down. looking forward into the next twelve months, i’ll regroup and pull myself together to find my strong. i’m a fighter and won’t stop short of reaching my goal. as long as i stay strong, keep grinding and never settle for less than my full potential. life is about betterment and i’m committed to being the strongest version of myself

the latter part of 2017 wasn’t the best of days and was a true test of patience. the long drought, the fluctuating health, the seesawing emotions were all big obstacles, but i made sure all loose ends were closed. waving 2017 goodbye knowing 2018 has much more for me in store

  • get back healthy and stay as injury-free as possible
  • consistent training and eating with proper sleep
  • step up my game and take it to the next level
  • setting my priorities and boundaries
  • love myself for who i am, love my family, love my friends
  • stay focused towards advancement
  • attain more designations
  • save up for the numbers game
  • explore and travel the world
  • devote more time on what sets my heart on fire
  • step out of my comfort zone and expand my horizon
  • acknowledge being a workaholic but appreciate the little things

i’m ready to start 2018 off strong and be the stubborn goal digger that i am. just remember the best has yet to come

day 1268 – baby steps

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i am so happy i finally made the two plate club for deads. it was a long time coming; i came close six weeks ago but injuries plagued me. all the baby steps i have taken to get back makes this milestone that much more rewarding. it happened all because you once told me you believed i could, so i took your words to heart and worked at it. i’m encouraged because of your encouraging words. just goes to show how powerful words can be and a little positive vibe can get me farther than i thought i could

day 1192 – fizz see oh

DSC_3239getting my maintenance work in for my beat up body so i can continue to beat up my body. i like to be active and i will continue to be for as long as i can. physio did mention he was very pleased with how well i held up for as long as i have been away. it’s also nice to hear from others that they’ve noticed my improvement and acknowledge what i can do; that’s a compliment i’ll gladly take. i’m here because you inspired and challenged me to be, but i’ll never be satisfied with myself because i know i can always be better