day 1573 – unravel

not the typical day i thought it would be at work. i thought i would go about my own business and keep my composure just as i’ve always done, but i unraveled in a hurry. i refused to bring my personal life to work and need not to explain the battles i fight. i was in pure frustration to hear people who have no idea what i’m going through make ignorant assumptions and go as far as using ‘abusing rights’. i never want to unload any of my problems on anyone cause i believed i’m tough enough to shoulder my own burden. clearly i haven’t said enough; hr and manager are asking to be let in on things i bottled up for much too long. they want to be my outlet and they want me to know i can let them in

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day 413 – digression along seawall

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taking a long walk along the seawall to digress all that’s been happening around my life as of late. i had a rough one last night and woke up feeling like crap, but with the passage of time plus comfort and care of family and friends, it has gotten a bit less emotional. having all these bottled up inside makes life very depressing, i am still very surprised i finally let it all out and got it out of my system

day 290 – competition day

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competition day has arrived and i realized how nerve wrecking it is to be up on the stage alone in front of hundreds of judges and competitors no matter how many times i have been through this. disappointment overall cause i knew i could have and should have done better and tough luck for getting my two least favourite poomsae of all, just wasn’t meant to be this time. being my second nationals this is one of the hardest competition i have ever been to but there’s a lot of experience i can take with me. now getting exposure of the level out there, we can move forward knowing what the best in canada is capable of