day 505 – drained

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feeling awfully drained and really needing a break. no doubt i knew there would come a time when my mind and body will not allow me to continue with the kind of schedule i run on. its been wearing down on me for over half a year and now my mind is ready to go on strike. i wake up everyday feeling crappy and even more so exhausted knowing the things i have to get through day after day. all i want to do is shut off the world and finish what i have to do. it’s christmas season and all i am too drained to even enjoy it. i try to hide all that stress and pretend everything is okay because i don’t want to put it upon anyone else but somehow it’s showing through my shell. i need a break, i know its not time yet, but i know it’s coming in a couple more weeks

day 498 – catching up to me

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when was the last time i had a chance to sit down in front of my computer and do nothing?? or that i wasn’t out running around doing stuff and taking care of business?? i don’t ever recalling a particular night like that for the past three months. i am running out of gas, and fatigue is really catching up to me. glad to see that a few things will be off my plate very soon so i may get some much needed personal time and space