day 849 – big decisions

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i think i made one of the biggest decision since my existence but i also think it’s a necessary one. i’ve been in limbo for quite some time but i kept quiet and tried to hide everything inside. today, i took a huge leap of faith and let go of something i really should have let go long ago, but was afraid to do so. i sat at starbucks to recollect myself because i wasn’t sure if i was aware what just happened. now it’s time to collect my thoughts and think about the steps i need to take moving forward. this was an all important decision and i believe it’s the right one because without it, i would continue to be a robot assuming my regular routine. this really forces me to focus on what i really needed to do – think about what’s best for me

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day 721 – hibernating day

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my mind is constantly telling me all commitments should be pushed to the side, not going out tonight anywhere because i feel the need to hibernate. i want to stay at home and take the time to catch up on so much i haven’t gotten around to completing. hope hibernating this week will cure all the troubles and tasks on my plate, set me back to normal and boost my productivity

day 699 – back to reality

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my so called vacation came to an end and life back to normal again. i am ready for another vacation and more travelling of explorations and adventures. although i wouldn’t even consider it a vacation since partial seriousness was required for competition. guess it’s time to look forward and plan for the next competition, but before then, there’s a lot of training and work to be done

reality in the making

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ever had those dreams where when you wake up you don’t recall much of what happened or only recall fragmented pieces that doesn’t link up?? those temporary dreams that don’t make a lasting impression are not of my concern. when a dream worth achieving, it is a dream worth working for. a timely post to remind myself about discipline and self control because i have been doing poorly in that regard as of late. i guess that’s what separates dreams from reality and the mediocres and the good. thanks for always nudging me back on track when i start straying, reminding me the importance of the game plan and forever pushing me to do better. although sometimes it’s pretty brutal the way you put it, and you make me feel a little more useless than i need to. it is that guilt trip that lets me know i am not doing it right, that i can always do better. it takes a lot of commitment to make a dream into reality but once i put my mind to it, its reality in the making

day 408 – all a blur

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everything went by like a blur and i couldn’t seem to keep up. the post concussion symptoms which i thought had subsided continues to plague me and my activities. it was not a night i would or even want to remember. some things need to be addressed immediately, knowing it is a long and tough road ahead. no matter how hard it is it has got to be done

day 268 – spanking new

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it brings so much joy to see that we finally replaced the old green and yellow mats with these spanking new blue and red. depised the old mats that caused me to sprain both my knees on the same day the night before my most important competition thus far. installed just in time to let us practice on these mats and prepare for nationals. with this change, the school looks completely different and so much more legit in every way, i hope there will be more equipment replacements to follow

day 164 – socks

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changing up my original white sock collection with my new multi coloured socks. the brightness certainly makes it feel different i am unsure how i will adjust to them, will need some time to get use to this. i really do love adidas socks and i really love sock shopping in general