day 1675 – mummified thumb 

the thumb sprain wasn’t going to stop me two straight days. it’s still troubling, but showing up to dodgeball with a mummified thumb is what i had to do. playing in tier 2 has its difficulties, understanding the rules and playing with honesty are two big ones. even for a team who won back to back sportmans award, playing against cheaters boiled our tempers and unraveled when certain players are blatantly cheating. it was not a fun night when we had to point out individuals who are repeated offenders

day 1654 – queen’s tourney 

looking at some old photos of when we last played queen’s tournament, and now we’re looking ahead to this year’s. frankly, i haven’t played since september and i can’t tell if i’m missing the sport or missing my friends. it’ll be a real test for that thumb of mine come next week when i step back into the court to field balls. i’m not sure how i feel but i’m sure that’s not relevant. honestly i don’t know how my physio hand specialist feels about that, but making my comeback is bound to happen

day 1597 – clinic time

hand therapy appointments can’t be described as fun when they passively manipulate my joints to do what it can’t do at this point. this visit was a little of waxing, ultrasound, heat pads and exercise mixed in. although it’s still not as functional like i need it to be, regaining some functions is noticeable progress. an increase in grip strength and pinch strength is expected but still good to see. it will come back to me soon. it’s in my nature to be pushing harder than what i should be going for

day 1574 – surgeon visit 

fifth time into the clinic and fifth set of xrays, the radiologist has gotten to know me too well. hand specialist handed me some good news today that gave me a reason to smile and it wasn’t that my bone has grown back together cause the xrays are still ugly. in fact, he reiterates my bone will never be straight again, it will never appear as one piece, it may always have clicking inside, but he intends on making my thumb work again. my splint is trimmed down a little and i’m given the go ahead on certain things. it just means i now have less restrictions as to how often i need to wear it. the road is a little more clear now

day 1536 – sandwich 


saturdays is barely considered meal prep. if lucky, i’ll get two toasts in; if not, one will get me through until dinner time. all these years i’ve managed killarney saturday classes as well as i could and no question i put my heart and soul into it. if sifu stopping by today changes because i taught wearing a t-shirt instead of full uniform due to a broken thumb, i have nothing to say except it’s unfortunate. parents were concerned for me; why i wasn’t rest the injury and taking a day off when i’m obviously in considerable pain. i am here being my workaholic self because i know my students need me more

day 932 – unyielding

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if taping up my thumb solves the problem then there’s no problem. a visit to the doctor might be inevitable if the pain persists, but in the meantime, let’s get some work done. this place has been more than a sanctuary for me through my many moods and emotions. whatever i am going through, be it stresses and problems, the gym and its iron is the cure to most of it