day 2320 – low life

sleepless on a sunday night does not bode well for monday morning. i needed a coffee first thing when i got into work. i couldn’t help but stay awake thinking and overthinking of all the things i may have to give up. i can’t stop myself from crying thinking my life as an athlete could come to an abrupt end. i hadn’t done all that i wanted to accomplish and i clearly hadn’t expected it to approach so soon. i can’t stand to open up and tell many of my injury status so keeping it to myself was my next best option

day 1922 – scholarship

grandmaster handed out scholarship to a few of us at the annual celebration party. it’s his way of encouraging us to take the next blackbelt test. to be frank, this amount covers only a small portion of the large sum. i’m not sure where i sit with this decision because it doesn’t necessarily change anything for me. there’s many reasons i don’t need it, but also many reasons to just do it. i’ll give it a little more thought over the course of the next month and see what type of commitment it requires

day 1676 – good to great


img_20200203_1331426874807057382806336.jpgtrying to kickstart a good march with a quote on my whiteboard. sitting down with the boss for a swot session made me think really hard about my strengths and how i can make them from good to great. leaving the room with a new way of thinking through things and how i can grow as a human being in the work force. i can only imagine the series of coaching sessions will be a good place to boost my career growth. there’s a lot of brainstorming and homework to be done

day 1575 – long talks

being filled in the world of politics over some sushi to get the latest news. i have a better picture of what’s going on the the political world but that doesn’t change the position i’m in. after this talk, it reassures me the approach i’ve been taking is the correct one. it helps to know these things; i take these advice with a grain of salt and will give it some careful thoughts in the next little while

day 1305 – wash and dry

img_20200204_1644057330007677922720497.jpgdespite sleeping at 2 in the morning, i naturally woke up early as usual. morning was a little laid back as i had no urgency to wake up immediately so i slept in a little before giving my filthy shadow a little quick wash. it took a little longer than i thought so didn’t have much time for a lunch before it was time for taekwondo. rdl social after a seven hour taekwondo shift is pretty tiring. probably would have been better use if i had some personal space just to think and straighten some things out

day 1057 – walking in rain

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a walk in the drizzling rain got me a little wet, but left me feeling refreshed. when i am alone, i think and think until i overthink everything. i’ll always find something to think about even when there’s nothing to think about. sometimes life let’s you wander off to nowhere in particular and leave you hanging just so you can learn a little more about yourself and perhaps find yourself. i got my rest, i got my time off; it’s time to look for steps to do something that will lead me to what i my soul is searching for