day 1364 – toasting 

i can tell you such restricting diet sucks when all i really wanted today was a chocolate chip cookie. it’s times like this when i crave all the bad stuff that i consistently pry myself from anyways. i’ve had enough plain bread and blandness the past week. my first trial run of first real food was an egg and my treat of the day was pint sized chicken udon for dinner. people have been telling me i shrunk, and my face is noticeably paler, skinnier and look borderline unhealthy

day 1166 – bars and boxes

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something made me feel pretty good as i was left the gym today. maybe because my first attempts at box jumps in over a month turned out really well. i thought i’d try some easy ones just to reintroduce it to my body, but ended up matching my normal height. it wasn’t that i was pain free, but the fact the pain didn’t escalate is something i’ll gladly take. i can honestly say through the past two weeks i’ve been painstakingly patient. i hope it pays off and treats me well with recovery

day 1162 – obwf

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i kept my word to be out of both dodgeball and hockey action for a full week and now i am back. it’s season 22 photoweek; the team is slightly different this season, playing under the name obwf than our normal obyf. still being cautious and still testing out that back, but happy to report my back felt okay at the gym and at dodgeball. definitely a big step in the right direction, but always need a reminder to ease myself back in

day 915 – stacking it up

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having a little faith in my ability and putting it to the test on unpadded surface. stacking up to seven plates on this night and successfully making it to the top unscathed. first attempt and first success is always deserving of a victory pose and casual step off. the first jump is always the hardest not because of the physical hurdle, but the mental one. not bad when i’m still nursing those messed up shins, but that hardly stops me much. i’ll be aiming higher next time and each time after that

day 811 – teammates tattle tale

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when things feel slightly improved i feel like i can be normal again but in reality i am far from it. shouldn’t be playing but here i am in full gear trying to give it a go even though a dozen people didn’t approve of it and tried to drag me off the court. it’s a chance i wanted to take because i wanted to see what state my knee is in and what is it capable of, if anything. what can i say, i live on the edge with a life full of high risks

day 590 – spin at river rock

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what would i do after friday night training on friday the 13th?? testing out my luck at the casino but it is heart stakingly painful to watch as my stack of chips depletes. i am holding onto my stack of chips and playing it carefully, thinking i make strategic wagers that will win everything back. i didn’t break even but at least i went in with a set amount that i would bet so i knowing i can walk out without breaking my bank

day 557 – lazy days

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continuing with my restful recovery week and lazy days turned out to be not so lazy afterall. the entire week has been very uneventful and least flattering, being stuck at home and unavailable for any physical activities made me feel beyond useless. i felt less dizzy today so decided to go to the gym and if i get through that without lasting ill-effects, i am heading up the mountain tomorrow