day 1717 – jersey for humboldt 

got the free pass to wear hockey jersey to work to honour the victims of the humboldt bronco’s. to think of what these hockey families are going through, the loss of their children overnight. it hits a soft spot in me; playing hockey myself and knowing how much dedication is needed to be in a sport. of the many jerseys i have, my mom chose my canucks jersey so i opted to wear my fishsticks jersey to work

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day 1566 – tech signage 

tech team signage is now up and hanging over my workstation. working on a statutory holiday for a swap day because there’s too much to do for the amount of time i’m have during regular hours. logging another eleven and a half hours to get my millennial drawings into the plant for production. it’s great to hear that manager likes expressing things to me; said i’m trustworthy person to vent to and probably valued my insight. as a result, i’ve also found it much easier to open up to him to mutually support each other

day 1547 – lorraine replicas 

i came out to complete team lorraine as part of the dress up halloween wednesday. all i had to do with show up and my teammates brought the props to me. i know that i’ll always have my obyf teammates cheering me on, even when i’m the one on the sideline. their support for me and the team spirit they bring has been a difference maker during my coping time. i can’t wait to be back on the court with these neon guys, but i fear my chances of returning before this season ends is slim

day 1350 – on my feet

just as i thought the days couldn’t get rougher, more misfortune hit me hard early this morning. i was depressed and ready to pack it in but he reminded me of the positives. at the end of the day, fortunate to know that he’ll take the time to make sure i get back up on my feet. the company i received while doing something i enjoyed helped destress and lifted my mood; realized there’s still a reason to smile. this might be the last time i wear these skates; next time i lace up, i’ll be starting off fresh

day 1339 – lift myself

this week has been real rough fighting so much distractions. made it to the end of the work week and lucky to be still in one piece. the take back for this week is how to be one of the pillar for my family when called upon. many things have been limited if not put on hold; i haven’t been to the gym as often as i usually do. many things have backtracked and dropped much strength but good to know i still can pick up myself, literally

day 1167 – thankful

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wrapping up the long weekend with a relaxing day at richmond designer outlet. i’m very thankful to be able to surround myself with supportive people that’s been with me through my highs and lows. the support and guidance i received has gotten me farther than i could’ve imagined; the reason i can continue to live out and chase my dreams. i’m always a willing giver to those who saw me fail but never gave up; i didn’t give up because you didn’t give up on me. i’m not perfect, i’m a limited edition. i’ll continue to work my way towards being the best that i can be. it’s been an enjoyable long weekend with a lot of mo time, and now it’s time to work hard and chase the big dreams that awaits

out from stumbles

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lately i have been stuck in a rut fighting myself, losing my sense of direction and not knowing what i want to do with my life. i would carry on and beat myself up, then question whether my existence is meaningless. that’s not to say i have figured everything out, but i have decided to stop beating myself up and believing i am worthless. point is, i need to correct those behaviours because it would only hurt myself and hurting myself is hurting the loved ones around me; i hate to see others get hurt. i do feel apologetic for being silent and quiet about my problems, perhaps i am not quite good at sharing my troubled thoughts. i don’t mean to make you guys worry. it won’t change overnight, but i’ll try harder to be more open and vocal about what goes on inside my head. it’s time to realize i am not suppose to settle to be an average person, just like the millions of other human beings on earth. it’s time to step up my game and live up to expectations and chase my own dreams. doing so is nerve wrecking, but that’s the only way to grow as a person and expand on what i have already accomplished. i know that whichever path i choose to take, i will have the support of those around me. i want the supporters in my life to know that i was born for a reason