day 2343 – marshmallow

when i said big things was coming this year, i didn’t mean marshmallow. starting off the sunny new year day being strong and chipping away at clean and jerk technique. i also got my car’s headlight replaced, cleaned out the rest of my wardrobe, organized some things and watched some prince of tennis. the dinner table was stacked with eight delicious dishes. ended the day relaxing with a facial mask. i would say that’s decent start to the year

day 2150 – tsujiri cravings

it was a not so productive first grass session for myself. i didn’t feel like i could do anything properly as both my ankles are going haywire. though i wish i could do more and get some good training in, it was a fun grass session nonetheless. i still got to toss frisbees, softballs and footballs around. a bunch of us hit up tsujiri to satisfy our matcha cravings. i love matcha soft serve and i don’t think that’s a secret

day 2135 – champs elysees

today was dedicated shopping day walking down both rue du rivoli and champs elysees. i didn’t buy any designer handbags but i did buy a pair of shoes and some t-shirts. i’m so glad the weather cooperated today since it was all outdoor walking. i guess i shouldn’t be buying much since this trip itself is already costing quite a bit. also, the longer i’ve been away and the more frustrated i am with how some things are dealt with. i’d cut the trip short if i had that option

day 2131 – amsterdam centraal

we added another country to our list by making an impromtu day trip out to amsterdam. it wasn’t a bad idea until we realized a two and a half hour train ride, one way, is actually painfully long. during the day, we almost melted because we were basically outdoor all day and it was thirty one degrees at one point. the city had a lot of historic buildings, bikes, canals and floating flower markets. it was a nice place to take photos and enjoy the scenic walk

day 2041 – woodwork

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doing some wordwork in my backyard with the help of my dad while it’s sunny outside. it’s a rare occurrence to have spare time, but i made use of the moment and did a bunch of things that’s usually not a top priority. i started off the morning with power skating, did a thorough car wash and vacuum inside and out, and built some plyo boxes. i can’t wait to show them off once i have all the material to finish off the big boxes, but so far it’s turned out well

day 1751 – ultimate sub

it’s been a few years since a last played ultimate, but here i am subbing a double header. so much running and cardio involved in this sport; reminds me why it’s not my top pick. by the end of the two games, i had taken over seven thousand steps. i guess i wasn’t as tired as i would’ve been if it wasn’t for all that sunrun training. it took half the first game to get my lingo back and after i settled in, it turns out to be lots of fun 

day 1537 – air

perhaps i might be better off if i never even bothered waking up and getting out of bed after an uneasy night. i did a lot of thinking and reflecting in the past waking hours of why i have to suffer through what doesn’t even treat me right. so many questions in my head left unquestioned notably how i’m going to continue onward. realizing this is the time to figure out what everything means to me and what i’m worth to others. went through the day with no emotions and a big void inside. surprisingly didn’t even see a drop of tear; maybe my tears went dry, or maybe i learn to block out feelings as if i had none

day 1511 Рprince rupert 


the view that my mom is currently seeing in prince rupert is something to be envious when vancouver is raining all day. my favourite season is on it’s way out and it’s sad to know that the rainy season of raincouver is upon us again. i know it’s greedy to want a longer summer; i just haven’t taken full advantage of the warm sunny days and done enough outdoor activities

day 1446 Рrollerblading 

woke up at six to watch federer win his ninth wimbledon title. thought i would do something spontaneous before my hockey game. somewhere at the bottom of my sports closet is my dusty blades my parents got me back when i was in my early years of highschool. wasn’t sure if they still fit, wasn’t sure if they required a tune up, wasn’t sure if i remember how to roller blade, but didn’t think twice before strapping them on

day 1387 – round and round

work and appointment went smoothly, yet it was still a bad day. even the sunshine didn’t change my state of mind. the little things really add up to a lot and i’ve realized more so of why i’m less happy. perhaps my inner self is starting to take exception to the diminishing consideration and respect. it sucks always being discredited and it sucks being secondary. it’s eating me up and i feel like my confidence is reaching an all time low. i lose sleep seeking self acceptance because i struggle to like myself for who i am