day 2163 – sharing difficulties

a subpar session and horrible stretch has left me frustrated as ever. even the boston pizza spicy thai chicken wrap sitting in front of me didn’t change my appetite or mood. i didn’t expect to have this talk with the flightclub crew, but i realize we’ve become close friends that i’m okay with letting them in on some of my thoughts and feelings, and they also shared theirs. lately, lots of negative thoughts were floating through my head, all of which left me empty. feeling discouraged with the training and progress as of late, i was beginning to accept my fate in my freestyle dream. i opened up and almost cried, but they listened and seemed to understand what i’m going through. maybe they finally realize the strong outer shell i uphold isn’t so strong on the inside

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day 1728 – penta social

went expecting to social with other penta players, but it wasn’t what i expected. there wasn’t much mingling involved, just eating, listening and drawing prizes. the social in this league is very different than the ones i’m used to going to; maybe the demographics is very different. the food was sub-par and disappointing, but at least we walked across the street to have a scoop of earnest. i’m surprised to see so many familiar faces within penta, many of which i met playing dodgeball

day 1119 – demeanour

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sometimes when you get comfortable seeing something you forget to appreciate the little things that surround you. taking things for granted happens; it happens with things, it happens with people. i guess i can’t be too bothered because a good day at the gym cancels it out and also makes up for my last subpar performance. i am happy i made new ground today and i know there’s more to come. once again, it reminds me pr’s are meant to be broken, limits are meant to be surpassed and goals are meant to be reached

day 1071 – sky watcher

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woke up early to catch some wimbledon action and federer didn’t disappoint; an amazing two set down comeback gets him a spot in the semifinals. i didn’t feel up to par at training tonight which really brought me down. i can only blame myself because i know i made a bad judgement call prior to and i can’t let that happen again. spectating some flag football action under the white wispy clouds and ending the night with mo eased my mind a tad

day 815 – chances slipping

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the registration deadline is closing in and my chances of being able to compete is diminishing. it’s looking a lot like i have to give up my hope of competing in pan am club cause i still am not cleared to kick. i was really looking forward to going to this one but wouldn’t sacrifice quality just so i can go. a competition would lose its meaning if i went in under trained and not able to uphold my own standard. i know very well that i would feel even worse if i went and did subpar because i am not there to participate but to contend. i guess i will turn my attention to focus on rehab and prepare for what’s next in store for me