day 2084 – green plate snatch

one of my initial goal when i first started lifting at apex was to fix my snatch, and to eventually snatch the green plates. i’m so happy to have finally achieved that goal today. each time i’m at apex, i’ve been making progress and breaking my personal record from the previous session. even i cannot believe i’ve worked my way up to a one hundred and forty front squat. i’m sure as long as i keep working hard and tightening my techniques, i’ll shatter more personal records one after another. now i’m beginning to wonder if snatching the yellows is an achievable goal

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day 2077 – loaded front squats

each tuesday at the apex gym, i’ve pushed a heavier weight than the preceding, setting a personal best every single week since i started training here. prior to being on this program, i’ve been stuck within the one hundred mark. i’m really pleased i just hit the one plate mark for front squats. my snatches also felt pretty good and upped my weight to sixty nine. though it’s not the max snatch, they’re done with better technique and increased consistency. let’s keep setting personal best for all my lifts including front squat, back squats, snatches and cleans

day 2063 – front loading

front squats triples with this weight came with a pleasant surprise. my front squats have improved quite a bit since i first started re-learning my olympic lifts with apex. the first workout on this program, i had a front squat of ninety nine and now i’m at one thirty. i can only afford to olympic lift once a week, so results will be a little slower. good to know that the goal of chasing the one plate club is not far away

2016 year at glance

a look back at the highlights and lowlights of the past 365 days captivated by my carl zeiss lens. a lot has happened and all these snapshots are like puzzle pieces that write my story. 2016 was a year soul searching, a year of adventure and a year of realization. life was pretty grim at times; but it’s how i overcame these hurdles that sets me apart from who i was before. i’ve worked hard and learned a lot about myself and the others around me. i learned that sometimes i need to be selfish because i didn’t love myself for who i was. i learned to carry my own weight. i finally broke out from a plateau and figured out some things; things are starting to click and showing signs of progression. i am excited for the turn of the calendar year because 2017 will be a year of building upon what i have achieved and want to achieve. i’m more than ready to make the necessary adaptations to become the best version of myself and i want my dearests to be there by my side

day 1194 – power game

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felt gross internally after a night out at the pub eating poorly, got to clean it up. but that feeling was slightly negated because i got my power game going strong. in the short time i returned from competition, i’m already back in my lifting game and made a pr today. i can’t explain the happiness i felt because ever since i started, i had set a goal for myself and today i made that goal. you know all is good when i can get back snatching and going for more goals

self discovery

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it was more or less a self-wrecking week with so many internal and external forces pushing up against me. it was all a combination of stress from competition, school, work, people but none more so than myself. the road has not been easy as i have felt myself slowly dying inside but i didn’t want to confront and address it. it hurts to know that leakage of my stresses was stressing out others. no one has a clue what is going on in my head and it’s probably better kept that way. i’m disappointed at myself for not handling myself better and keeping my emotions a little tighter. the last thing i want is to be a burden to anyone and add unncessary flavour to anyone; i made up my mind that interacting less and speaking less will be helpful. i felt safe that way just to eliminate any chance of doing or saying the wrong things. sometimes i wonder why i need feelings when i’m better off without them. during this time, i spent some time reading quotes and looking for inspiration to get me through this stretch. i’m already at a point of self-destruction, there’s nowhere else to go but up. i know i’m strong enough to get through these ruts, and in case i’m not, i need to find a way to become stronger. i do believe i’ll find my way out and the better is on its way

give and receive

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recently each and every day is a mighty struggle because i am trapped in a battle against myself and within myself. regardless of what i go through, i try not to let problems surface and definitely don’t allow my mood to fluctuate. i never want my troubles to affect others because i am a strong and independent girl that ought to take care myself and not cause others to worry. truth is, i’ve been really troubled lately and i just don’t know what to do with myself. there are nights when i sit alone thinking about everything i am, everything i am not, and then eventually emotions get the better of me. sometimes i am uncertain what purpose i serve in society and why my existence even matters?? what exactly sets my heart on fire and where my passion lies?? this is a routine i would go through day in and day out, but so far i’ve come out empty handed majority of the time. every now and then, i would feel my strength as a person has been decreasing with every self destructing battle i fight. then i think to myself that life gave me those challenges because i am strong enough to live it. knowing nothing comes overnight, i can only carry on and stay positive that something will come along as long as i keep going. this is only one of the few challenges i will encounter in my life, and i am set on defeating it