day 2167 – spiderman far from home

it was a very good day. i had good snatches and strong paused squats before catching spiderman far from home with friends. i redeemed myself from last week’s poor showing by working up to two kilograms shy of my personal snatch record. also feels good to add five pounds to my paused squats. i walked into the cinema feeling great and perhaps watched my favourite spiderman movie of all time. i thought his newest suit is the best looking ever and wished that i could have waited before buying mine. this one is probably one that i would rewatch once it’s made available for streaming

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reflecting reality

highschool really did feel like just yesterday. just like majority of highschoolers, i graduated and went onto university thinking i had it planned for the rest of my life. truth is, that thought couldn’t have been any more incorrect and far from reality. i went on to graduate just like how my parents had mapped it out, with an honours degree in environmental design. after a bachelor, i was suppose to do my masters of architecture and become a fully licensed architect. that never happened because acceptance rate was one in ten. i took a brief break but have been working since then. my point is, life is far from how i had imagined it straight out of highschool. i’ve chosen a less traveled career path unlike the stereotypical asian jobs. i’ve believed that my friends circle will remain unchanged. i’ve been misled that i’d meet someone who would treat me like a destination. i’ve learned that growing up requires unlearning the learned. it’s been a struggle as i continue to walk down this path establishing myself as a professional and finding where i truly belong. the start of the year has been really good to me; working my butt off has earned me respect within my peers. i’ve climbed the work ladder real quick liked my manager forewarned, and as a result have been delegated a lot more responsibilities. nothing was given to me; i had to step up and grasp all the windows of opportunities. because of the obstacles and challenges i overcame, i have become the strong woman i am today. i’m not where i want to be yet, but with my grit drive and determination, i’m have full confidence i will make my dreams a reality. i’m on a mission to finding myself and finding my strong. this is where it all starts and where everything will come together for me 

day 1402 – going for it


i most certainly don’t make the best choices when it comes to precautionary circumstances, but i went for it anyways. i’m stoked that i just went triple digit and made my bench pr. benching has always been my weakest major lift; for that reason, i avoid it. i’m told that with my athleticism, i should be able to bench at least my bodyweight; i sneered every time i’m told because i know that’s too much to ask of me. after today, my goal towards bodyweight may not be unachievable after all. thanks for always reminding me it’s a must – you had more belief in me than i ever had

day 1338 – sprung out

sprung out of spring break and easily had one of my best showing this season. played a strong five and six today; had some extra firepower behind my throws and catching was on point. gstrings are starting to round into form and both teamwork and communication is steadily improving. there’s never a dull moment playing with these girls. aside from all the distractions, it’s good to see myself zone in and play a hard strong game

fulfilment

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heaving a ten tonne rock off my shoulders is an appropriate representation as i haven’t felt so relieved in far too long. it may not mean anything to others, but to me, no words can describe how much receiving that call means to me. for the past year, i struggled to find myself, to accept myself and to be myself. i would hate myself for never being good enough at everything and for anything, often had internal war within. i went though down times that caused eating problems which consequently wrecked my body in too many ways. i bottled up all my problems and feelings, and avoided sensitive topics at all costs. it got to the point where i lost interest in a lot of things and wanted to confine myself in my own space so i didn’t have to talk. at last i opened up to a selected few; i need not to mention any names as you know who you are. i’m thankful that while i was going through my wildest and worst times, you came to the rescue and stood by me. thank you for being patient with me when i was going through some of the roughest times. for piecing me together and keeping me together when i was self destructing. for not rushing me to become something i wasn’t ready to become. for supporting me to find what i truly wanted. for accepting me with open arms and caressing me when i needed you most. it’s you that kept me afloat and a good reason why i’m still alive and striving to this day. through this process i’ve learned an abundance of things –  it’s okay to have weak moments but i’ve learned to be strong. many times i thought i had turned the corner, only to stumbled back in. today i can safely and assertively say i have found my way out of this gigantic hole, and i will only move forward in the direction i’ve always wanted to go but didn’t dare to go. i have a very good reason to smile as i’m leaving everything behind and starting my new episode fresh. i have found myself and i’ll be chasing whatever fulfills my heart

monday night is date night

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quality bonding time after being apart three years and only maintained through long distance messaging. fooling around at mcdonalds and our ability to be ourselves everywhere anywhere. time really does fly and before we know it, our friendship has been over a decade long and only continues to grow. you know our friendship is strong when our friendship remains so close even though we are separated by many seas and mountains. and no matter what situation arises, we will always know that the other will be right there when we need them most. looking to the day we can be reunited and not thirteen time zones apart