day 2227 – taekwondo time

killarney just got a lot way more stressful starting this term. i’ll be short my vice instructor because she got pulled back to teaching at main branch but i get no one in return; it’ll be just me, an instructor and assistant instructors. i’ll have to train up another vice instructor from scratch. until then, i’ll have to own everything and be prepared to take on anything that comes my way. that’s including preparations for promotion tests, comeptitions and demonstrations while juggling my staff’s limited availability. it’ll be hard to stay sane throughout this term, but i’ll stay positive and continue to believe in what i can offer

day 2217 – nothing left

i’m feeling upset and beat because it’s crunch time and i can’t seem to land anything, not even my basic back tuck. the test is in a matter of days and my x-out feels like it’s fallen apart. it’s not a required board breaking, but i have been yearning to do this and if i was only going to take the fourth dan test once in my life, i better make it be something i’ll remember. i wanted to be proud of what i did and not just do the bare minimum. at this rate, i’m not sure if it’s going to happen

day 2079 – private gym

hitting up friend’s private gym just so i could get some quiet time away from people. it’s been a rather draining week at work when i got a few curve balls at the end of last week. i got all my renderings done one day before the deadline. the stress not only made me sleep deprived, but also caused extreme lows for my blood pressure and i almost fainted in the morning. still, i wanted to hit the gym and do my deadlifts and pullups. the weight felt super heavy, but at least i got it done

day 1917 – red feather

a meeting was called to discuss about red feathers and how it went down. red feathers wasn’t exactly an easy project to to work on, nor was it one that people wanted to stick their hands in. what bugs me most is one person kept sticking her nose into things and stirring the pot. there’ll always be people who choose to point fingers, but i’m hopeful there’s enough that wants to solve the problem

day 1847 – work screens

when i’m finally free from meetings and trying to get some work done and it department remotes onto my computer to play with my outlook. work is stressful day in and day out, but it’s made better when coworkers messed up with my Brain. it’s funny the topic covered in today’s emerging leader program is mainly about stress management and how to cope with it. it’s one of those things i’ll training for as i continue to grow and lead my team

day 1798 – horseshoe way


getting into work after a long weekend is not quite fun. i was hoping the long weekend would change the insomnia and headaches but so far i feel little improvement. the one person at the office that never fails to give me stress is doing it again, and always trying to pick the moment when my manager is not present. both the planned and ambushed attacks are all part of her strategy to redirect blame when something goes wrong. the trend of taking drugs day after day is not the long term fix, i’m slowly beginning to think a visit to my doctor is necessary. now if only i can find time to make that call

day 1759 – homework latteĀ 

this evening is all about homeworking while holding onto my cup of latte. i could be having fun on friday night, but i chose to do some catch up work at forty ninth parallel. there’s never enough time for all the things i must get done and the extra stress is noticeably getting to me this week. two more sleeps of home alone before my family fly back from their europe trip. it sure seems like they’re having a good time, but my mom still checks in to make sure i’m doing okay