day 2366 – what work

work really feels like a drag in the recent days. i have an overflowing amount of tasks and deadlines but none of it is giving me much excitement or motivation. maybe it has to do with the lack of appreciation for what i do as well as the amount of additional tasks i’m assigned to that’s unrelated to my job description. thank goodness it’s finally friday so i won’t have to be in this office the next two days. i looked forward to the week’s end even though i have to work on saturday anyway

day 2170 – road less taken

the tears that rolled uncontrollably down my face was a direct reflection of how i felt inside. as much as i wanted to stop myself in front of people, i simply couldn’t stop the tears from coming down. so much stress has built up around work, taekwondo, people and health that my emotional and physical state are torn inside and outside. all my life i feel i’ve been cheated because i never had the privilege of having the health most people enjoy. still, i push through and train through all my injuries, overcoming one after another. this time is no different, but four months is too long to go through without having a proper diagnosis and method of treatment. no doubt i’m feeling frustrated from the hopelessness

2045 – work deadline

kits collection rendering are due tomorrow – all schemes, streamlines, formulas, and flat lays. it’s been stressful the past weeks leading up to the deadline and especially stressful the last couple days. i’ve been modeling and doing test renders like crazy on three monitors and three computers but at times that didn’t even seem enough. even though i’ve been working so hard on this, there’s still people that will try to prove their noble self by pushing you down and those that completely undervalue what you just did

day 2038 – design brunch

we’re overdue for a group activity so we’re treated to a design brunch at comina. we took advantage of the nice day out and walked around steveston area and fisherman’s wharf before heading back to work. some bought plants, a few grabbed mini donuts, and many grabbed coffee during our ‘free’ time. sometimes a breath of fresh air relieves some stress and pulls us out of a things we shouldn’t be caught up with

day 1568 – aburi aburiĀ 

a little aburi and sashimi is a good way to get through the hump of the week. it could be whatever day, but sushi almost never fails me. it’s the kind of comfort food that can lighten mood and get me back on my ways. there’s no change in my erratic sleeping patterns; no matter which day, i’ll wake up several times throughout the night thinking i missed my alarm. a large part is from stress, as i prepare myself for my big day ahead of me

day 1211 – on the line

image

a weary week it has been with added stress and commotion. i’ve handled them myself to the best of my ability and dealt with them with a sense of urgency. i live through my passion that others may not see value or significance in. no one will understand how and why some things can impact me so much, but i’ll keep fighting for what i believe in and hope that one day they see it too. extremely relieved that i completed some tests and great to see that i can be a contender too; glad to know i’m wanted somewhere. i’m proud that i’m strong enough to stick with it

day 1127 – post rolling

image

wrapping up august with a satisfying workout and some intense rolling. the month has flown by so fast and today’s weather tells me summer season won’t last. reflecting on the month, i have made plenty of progress both physically and mentally, and in turn grown as a person. i have a lot to be thankful for, those who didn’t give up on me. i found that if i put my mind to something, i surprise myself and don’t always lose to my own expectations. the self realizations doesn’t end here, it’s only the beginning. stay tuned for the months to come on my journey to finding myself