first week of the dodgeball season for me and not a very good start at all. i landed on the ball and immediately knew that shit just happened. now i have no good ankle to stand or walk on. the first thought that went through my head was how much pain i was in, but rather how i could get back cause i have flips to do and hockey games to play. to look at it postuvely, it’s still early in the dodgeball season so i’ll be able to get back
the thumb sprain wasn’t going to stop me two straight days. it’s still troubling, but showing up to dodgeball with a mummified thumb is what i had to do. playing in tier 2 has its difficulties, understanding the rules and playing with honesty are two big ones. even for a team who won back to back sportmans award, playing against cheaters boiled our tempers and unraveled when certain players are blatantly cheating. it was not a fun night when we had to point out individuals who are repeated offenders
it’s back to square one. after my making my first catch of the dodgeball night, my hand was in excruciating pain and could no longer grip a ball properly. being me, i thought that if i taped it would allow me to play; if i taped more i could continue; and if i tape enough to make it immobile, i could finish the night. i finished the night, but once the last game was over, i realized i no longer have a functional hand. it does open nor close, it doesn’t hold a fork, nor a steering wheel; it basically doesn’t function for my basic needs
getting my hand checked out gives everyone a peace of mind, but knowing it’s more serious than i thought isn’t what i wanted. he was not surprised of another new injury plus my preexisting list of injured body parts. to my physio’s dismay, he told me not one, not two, but three tendons were sprained. i guess the pain i felt was real but forcing it very hard wishfully thinking the pain isn’t real. having high pain tolerance is good but it does come back to bite me. also got my knee and hip adjusted as per usual and wasn’t expecting my knee cap to be out as well. aside from my knee, he was quite happy with the shape i was in
physio needed to see me and i needed to see physio to assess and treat that finger and other banged up body parts of mine before he goes on vacation. i am very relieved when he said he’s almost certain it’s not a fracture and just a terrible sprain. although i am disappointed when he said i should still continue to wear the splint whenever possible. he didn’t even bother stopping me from doing my sports cause he knows me well enough to understand that’s not going to happen. the new kinesiologist shadowing today had little clue of what exercises i am usually given, so it was a chill day until the regular stepped in and changed all that. it’s the post physio blenz remedy i enjoy every time
i had a great weekend, only up to the moment i realize i had disobeyed all that i said i would do. i am fighting myself and feeling torn inside because i walked in with a number in mind but went well beyond that limit, i don’t know how it got so out of hand. it’s only finally hitting me hard today, the wheels have really fallen off and i don’t even know where to begin to pick myself up. what a heart felt disappointment when i have regretfully misused the trust others had in me. i failed others and most importantly i have failed myself. need to learn that discipline is choosing between what i want now and what i want most. perhaps i must be stricter and harder on myself and start my climb from the bottom again. i guess i deserved to have both my pinkies sprained during practice
physio appointment can’t get any earlier than this. having a 7am appointment basically meant that i was still half asleep and struggling to be coherent which made it almost impossible for me to clearly explain to my physio what had happened at the time of injury. i mustered the most vague explanation, physio was better off finding the answers and figuring out the severity of the injury himself, and he did. he went through a series of tests to check for ligament tears and thankfully reported negative, but a ligament sprain isn’t something to be taken lightly by all means. today’s appointment had me on both ice and then electro, and that usually signals a prescribed rehab process is on its way. so that means no sports or physical activities until he says otherwise
