if it weren’t for meeting some crucial deadlines, i shouldn’t even be at work because i felt so faint with low blood pressure. also didn’t help that i could hardly keep my eyes open during work and no amount of caffeine could make a difference. once i was i’m off, i went to poke needles all over my body to fix some overarching issues. i’ve always been the type of person that is willing to do anything to push injuries quicker so i can be game ready – this case is no different. sleeping problems worsened as a result of rising work stress and possibly holiday stress. it’s not a bad thing to be stepping it up, only need to make sure i don’t faint before i get them done
getting in early on the pre black friday sale which is pretty high on my shopping list. the first of many items i bought is a pillow that’s big enough i can comfortably with miumiu. a pillow i should have bought long ago that will serve me better and rid some of my sleeping woes and neck pain. i can’t wait until the rest of my stuff comes in to complete my makeover
a little aburi and sashimi is a good way to get through the hump of the week. it could be whatever day, but sushi almost never fails me. it’s the kind of comfort food that can lighten mood and get me back on my ways. there’s no change in my erratic sleeping patterns; no matter which day, i’ll wake up several times throughout the night thinking i missed my alarm. a large part is from stress, as i prepare myself for my big day ahead of me
the plate seems a lot heavier than weeks ago. my body still feels so out of sync from neck down after the accident. the many recent mishaps caused so many disruptions to my progress which is making me more impatient day after day. i’m still trying to rebuild but that won’t happen unless my body is recalibrated and it doesn’t help when i can’t seem to fall asleep and stay asleep at night
sleeping has been an issue the last couple days. falling asleep has become increasingly difficult; waking up feeling like i never slept last night. i lay in bed seeing the clock strike 2am, then 3am and realizing my alarm is set to ring in four hours. it’s never a good sign when i get agitated easily and don’t feel up to doing anything productive. these days when i am indifferent about everything gives me a terrible and empty feeling inside. could it be the stress and unease as the competition date gets closer??