day 2111 – sleep day

i woke up feeling fine somehow started to lose track of what was going on around me at work at 10am. i was feeling all flu-like symptoms including drowsiness, dizziness, fatigue, chills, and aches. i pushed through until the end of the day which i really shouldn’t have. it was an iffy drive home, but i did my best to stay alert on the road. i immediately crashed on my bed the second i got into my room and didn’t give a crap about anything else

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day 1958 – morning work days

back to work on early monday morning not feeling rest at all as i’m still fighting a nagging cold and cough. i can’t even buy sleep when i’m waking up at 2am and 4am everyday. it’s a never ending cycle of cough affecting my sleep pattern and the inability to sleep affecting the cold recovery. i keep finding reasons not go to into my family doctor’s office. it’s probably a waste of time since she doesn’t really solve my problems

day 1805 – home alert

a much delayed sick day and stayed day home to do nothing. even after sleeping in until ten in the morning, i still felt really crappy. not only has my head been hurting constantly for weeks, i could feel my blood pressure is at a low and couldn’t get my head or body to function. knowing so, i had to deliberately feed myself some salt. although i didn’t go into work, i was still checking my work email hourly. not being able to make it out to hockey game isn’t so bad, but it’s alarming when i felt indifferent missing it

day 1518 – office props

this workstation of mine is filled with recovery props and drugs. my headache erratic and unpredictable; it seems to get better and worse whenever it wants. at it’s worst, my head feels like it’s being compressed and there’s no enough oxygen the flows through. my immune system may already be used to the constant supply of tylenols. i tried really hard to work through it, but there’s a point that i thought i should go home instead of suffering through this at work. i probably shouldn’t have taken on tutor after work and get more rest as needed, but i don’t like canceling last minute

day 1512 Рwork roadblock 

it’s hard to please everyone when i have a handful of projects in my queue, each sales claiming theirs is urgent. already stressed with the many tasks on my list, any added drama was uncalled for. a road block came up today which could have gotten me into a lot of trouble. good thing my manager didn’t step in and let me dig myself out of it. i was stressed, but had to prove that i could handle managing the tech team. i had to get over fight the rush hour to get to a poomsae seminar in burnaby. although i wasn’t in condition to partake, sifu wasn’t too angry because i made the effort to be present

day 988 – doctor blows

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going in to see a medical doctor to satisfy my parents’ even though i knew it was going to be a total waste of time, and i couldn’t be more right. started off the week with a 39 high fever, dropped down a degree or two, but suddenly shot back up to 39 and now i even have cold-like symptoms. the doctor told me i don’t have strep throat, something i could have concluded myself. if i wasn’t semi dying, i wouldn’t even think twice about going in at all. what a way to spend my special one monther

day 985 – imperishable

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it’s true very little can stand between me and my gym, even when my headache and cough is getting progressively worse as the day wears on. was feeling pretty shitty when i walked in, but the gym is a place that ignites me and gives me that boost of energy whenever it’s lacking; it’s my happy place. lots of people don’t agree with my recklessness, but i will do what i set out to do and would rather collapse doing so. i am a tough cookie afterall and i’d hate to skip gym