day 1577 – gambler

what a coincidence to be walking around the autowest showroom during black friday. must be a joke trying to sell this limited edition gunmental matte grey sniper on a black friday. it definitely got my full attention and drooling as a made a few circles. i took a big gamble today that i probably shouldn’t have. i’ll have to keep a close tab on it and hope that i’ll find signs that it’s just a false alarm. chances are i’ll have to make a pit stop at hand surgeon clinic if that isn’t falsified

day 1570 – ikea run

treated to ikea froyo for helping with the ikea run. haven’t been to ikea for some time and haven’t eaten anything from ikea in a long time. as much as i wanted to reject the extra calories knowing pubnight social food is in the evening, it was already bought for me. so much guilt as i hold onto this cone wondering what after effects it may have. i restrict myself to a deficit on a regular basis, so one day i will lose the fat name callings. until then, i’ll always be self conscious and not let myself always have what it craves