day 1869 – apparatuses

didn’t spend any time at my own desk this morning. i had a good long meeting with the director followed by the bpdt team. constant meetings is very draining so really looking forward to getting off work and onto my way to practice some acrobatic stuff. felt a little tight and lethargic, didn’t really feel good about my back tucks. progress has been really slow, and i’m disappointed to say the least. i’m sure a lot of setbacks as to do with my ongoing shoulder woes

day 1868 – vignette casegoods

checking out the crops of all the hardwork my team and i put into the best western vignette. very pleased with how everything turned out; a big sigh of relief not only because it’s completed, but completed correctly as i shoulder most of the responsibility. a little side tantrum i must release. sometimes when things turn out well, there’s no credit given. sometimes when things turn out well, there’s still complaints coming out of people

day 1835 – bad shoulder

checking into physio because my shoulder is massively preventing me to live my life and carry out my daily needs. i’ve put a halt on all my sports, workouts and physical activities for two whole weeks, yet there seems to be no improvement. did some rotational and shoulder stability stuff with kinesiologist before physio worked on my shoulder, elbow, wrist, neck, and knee. i’m hoping whatever my physio adjusted today is what i need to get me well on my way back into sports

day 1829 – woman in black

my 2xu tights getting in on the action while i do some active stretching. no shame taking a selfie because there’s a first time for everyone. i usually wear shorts into the gym so this is a new look for me sporting all black coveted compressions. just in the gym trying to get some maintenance work done while i can’t be an active participant in my normal activities. it wasn’t just the legs, my chest and shoulder is still very sore from physio’s beating. disappointed that the pain and my movement is still as limited, but a little premature to say that it’s not improving

day 1824 – current status

icing and heating both my shoulder and elbow while maintaining movement is the story of the day. i really didn’t know what to do and what to think of it because i hadn’t done any tests, scans or rays. i refused to go to emergency even though dozens urged me to do so. i had no mood to do anything knowing sports is off limits right now. so i just stayed at home in the heat and sweated my sorrows away

day 1822 – cartwheel

throwing too many cartwheels and attempts of aerials nonstop can lead to severe injuries. i heard some kind of pop as i braced myself with an outstretched arm. i thought it had to be a dislocated shoulder or something had snapped in my elbow. i landed hard but i didn’t want to check what the problem could be because maybe i’m not ready to find out. as stubborn and stupid as i was, i continued practicing but knowing in the back of my mind it could be a major issue that needs attention

day 1573 – unravel

not the typical day i thought it would be at work. i thought i would go about my own business and keep my composure just as i’ve always done, but i unraveled in a hurry. i refused to bring my personal life to work and need not to explain the battles i fight. i was in pure frustration to hear people who have no idea what i’m going through make ignorant assumptions and go as far as using ‘abusing rights’. i never want to unload any of my problems on anyone cause i believed i’m tough enough to shoulder my own burden. clearly i haven’t said enough; hr and manager are asking to be let in on things i bottled up for much too long. they want to be my outlet and they want me to know i can let them in